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last night valaria and i went out to a bar and met up with a girl valaria used to date. she was sexxxxy! anyway so im sitting there watching valaria flirt thinking why the hell am i even here? but i didnt really let it get to me and talked with her. (her name is steph too hah) so im just drinkin and talkin to this girl and valarias got her arm around her with her hand in the womens hair which looked like valarias. and i told valaria they look like a couple. anyway as the night progressed idk i ended up getting really drunk really fast and me and steph started flirting hardcore. to the point that i dont even remember valaria being around. i was solely focused on her and then we left the bar and steph and i decided we needed pizza in our lives so we got some and i still dont remember valaria even being around i think she was behind us just watching us and i dont really remember where my pizza went i was that drunk... but valaria stopped a cab for steph out of the blue and started crossing the street and so i had to go too so i started following her waving bye to steph and then valaria started walking really really fast and i was having trouble keeping up. i started sprinting to try to catch up and after a few turns i couldnt see her anymore so i called her 3ish times and she didnt answer. i had absolutely no idea where i was or which direction i needed to walk to get to the train so i just sat at the corner i was at and just started bawling. some guy came by and saw me and crouched down and was like are you okay and was trying to help me. so i called valaria and she answered this time and i said where are you and she wouldnt tell me and shes like are you crying? im like of course im crying! and she said i wasnt her responsibility and so i just hung up. the guy ended up calling a car service for me to take me to my place and paid for it. he was seriously so nice i cant believe it. it took some convincing before i trusted him but it ended up ok. i cried the whooooooole way home. i could not fucking believe her. i trusted her with my life but after last night i most certainly do not. today i realize she must really like me to act how she did and im really not interested as of now. how could she.