update
i never write in my livejournal anymore. I should just abandon it, but then I'd be stuck in times like theses where myspace just isn't the place to write for various reason.
this time I have my cousin to blame for my problems...
she's inconsiderate and at this point in time I want nothing to do with her for a while. i'm so happy that I'm not going to Catalina with her because I'd be definitely cancelling after what she did.
So my grandma had to have a bunch of tests done and basically those tests to to determine whether she had breast cancer. I've known that she always a a big chance that she would get breast cancer because both of her sisters ended up with it, so it was only time before she would probably get it. So apparently the results came back.
here's why i want nothing to do with my cousin. She sent me a instant message basically asking me if i knew that granmda had cancer. Then she went away and i didn't see the message when she sent it because I was outside. See I don't talk to my grandparents all that often, basically maybe once a week. and I had been to their house early that week and there was no mention of it.
So I'm very upset with my cousin because she had no right to be the one to tell me. Something like that is something that my grandma or grandfather should tell me not her.I find it very inconsiderate of her to do that.
I think its now just truely setting in and the shock is disappearing. Its really hard to talk about it to anyone because I just can't get the words out without breaking down. I've known since saturday and today was the first day i mentioned to my mom just because I didn't want to be the one to give news like that because i don't feel like its my place to tell anyone.The rest of my family has no clue, I don't know what my dad is going to do when he finds out. Its too much for my little brother to even try to handle. My other brother doesn't know yet, I wanted to tell him first but he got out of the house that night before I had the chance to say anything to him.
And I can't really mention it on myspace because all my cousins have a myspace account and i don't want them to find out because i posted a bulletin or something like that. because I know how that feels and i hated finding out that way, so I don't want them to learn that way.
Just what I want to have worry about when I have finals and all kinds of end of the semester stuff...
this time I have my cousin to blame for my problems...
she's inconsiderate and at this point in time I want nothing to do with her for a while. i'm so happy that I'm not going to Catalina with her because I'd be definitely cancelling after what she did.
So my grandma had to have a bunch of tests done and basically those tests to to determine whether she had breast cancer. I've known that she always a a big chance that she would get breast cancer because both of her sisters ended up with it, so it was only time before she would probably get it. So apparently the results came back.
here's why i want nothing to do with my cousin. She sent me a instant message basically asking me if i knew that granmda had cancer. Then she went away and i didn't see the message when she sent it because I was outside. See I don't talk to my grandparents all that often, basically maybe once a week. and I had been to their house early that week and there was no mention of it.
So I'm very upset with my cousin because she had no right to be the one to tell me. Something like that is something that my grandma or grandfather should tell me not her.I find it very inconsiderate of her to do that.
I think its now just truely setting in and the shock is disappearing. Its really hard to talk about it to anyone because I just can't get the words out without breaking down. I've known since saturday and today was the first day i mentioned to my mom just because I didn't want to be the one to give news like that because i don't feel like its my place to tell anyone.The rest of my family has no clue, I don't know what my dad is going to do when he finds out. Its too much for my little brother to even try to handle. My other brother doesn't know yet, I wanted to tell him first but he got out of the house that night before I had the chance to say anything to him.
And I can't really mention it on myspace because all my cousins have a myspace account and i don't want them to find out because i posted a bulletin or something like that. because I know how that feels and i hated finding out that way, so I don't want them to learn that way.
Just what I want to have worry about when I have finals and all kinds of end of the semester stuff...