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"And I hate how much I love you boy, I can't stand how much I need you. And I hate how much I love you boy, but I just can't let you go. And I hate that I love you so."
So I'm absolutely in love with that song right now. I hate how much one song can just overtake me to a point where I'm relating every aspect of my life to it and finding too many similarities for me own liking. Take that as you wish. We all know that we have a similar situation in our lives to that song or have at one point.
I don't want to start having feelings anymore for him. That is not what my senior year is suppose to be about. It is about random boys that aren't emotionally attached to me to just have fun and nothing more. I don't want a serious thing this year because I know I will just have to leave him at the end of the year and I don't want to go through that heartache. The only problem is that I truly can't let him go and I hate that I love him so because the people that truly know me actually know that I never got over this kid. Let's face it I am just usually good adt pushing my emotions to the side so that I make myself believe I am over him. It works for a decent amount of time too and then I just can't hide it anymore and I'm all like " damn I like him again."
I am getting so stressed these days. This play is going to be my undoing.
"Now it's too late to apologize, it's too late. Said it's too late to apologize, it's too late."
Someone needs to get that picture because they aren't seeing it.
Ok random moments that make me smile....
"No one answer your phone!"
"Well me and Margo can have sex. That's ok right?"
"I was so high I fucked the rail." "Wow!"
"Lets have a cops theme!" "Wait I thought you wanted people to show UP to the prom."
"Ok so Mr. McGaw what's 65+25? Thats 100 right?"
"Where did Joe go?" "Where were you?! He left an hour ago."
"Mrs. Antieu do you have any good murder stories?" "No....WAIT...yes"
"Homework anyone?" SIGHS