i dont know.
ugh so much has happened since last time i wrote, me and myles are officially not friends at all we haven't talked for atleast a month, it sucks to that 3 years can just be lost in like 2 seconds and i didn't even do anything to him, he basically told me that i used to be his best friend and that he doesn't feel the same way anymore so i told him that i couldn't deal with his mood swings and he has to make up his mind, we are either friends all the time or not at all and i guess we're not? and he was just like good. like what the fuck it makes me so angry cause i never did anything to him ever it makes me mad that he changed so much like really it does make me so angry, but then part of me want tos say something to him, to fix things, cause its like 3 years? what did it mean, he was my best friend he was always there for me, like how can something so strong just end with 2 people hating each other i don't know i guess i'll just wait it out see what happens but life is too short for this it's too short to hold grudges i see that now. i don't know...
anyway on a better note, things have gotten so much better with corey you really have no idea. we had a really long talk about how i feel about how we never talk or hang out anymore and since then everythings been like so good, we got into one fight but it was basically me just over reacting about something but other than that i think our friendship got stronger within the last month i really do, i went to his graduation, i'm so proud of him i really am, even with everything he has on his plate with his anxiety and all he still managed to do it and we still manage to be friends even after everything i he really is my best friend cause even if we haven;t talked or hung out for awhile i know he'll always be there
i used to think jackie, ryans girl friend, hated me but I'm not so sure anymore, i never did anything to her and ryan locked his keys in his car one day and she was with him and i drove them back to his house and then i drove them back to the school, then the three of us and my sister went to a yankee game and it was fun i guess until ryan told me sean said he didn't like me then we got into a fight but we are good now lmao actually we just fought and then i went to the graduation and we were good there then kellyann was with me cause she came for a few days so after graduation we went back to ryans house and corey was there and sean and eddie came too, and sean and eddie got into this HUGE fight and it was really scary because sean threw a beer bottle that hit eddie and i really thought that eddie was going to kill him but then they made up and i dropped all the boys off at the all night graduation party and then me and kell came back to my house and went to sleep.
one night, the first night kell was here which was wednesday the 20th, omgg i went to the softball picnic and that was okay i guess, then when it was over i was with florinda and nicole milidantri and i was gonna drive them home and i fucking got stuck in a ditch at smith clove. omg it was probably the most embarassing thing ever, these guys had to hook a chain to the bottom of my car and pull me out, really i'm never going to smith clove again. lol anyway after that i just dropped florinda and nicole off at nicoles house then i went to pick up sammi and i went back to my house, then kellyann came then merry came down, then we left to go to sammi's house so she could get stuff to sleep over, then we went to pick up conor then we came back to my house and we were just sitting outside talking then danny munoz, johnny, and vinny all came but then vinny left then we went inside and watched the departed and they ate like all my food and then they all left around like 3 am and then me and kell and sammi went to sleep then the next day i brought sammi home then i had to babysit then i went to walden to bring kell home to get stuff to stay over again then on the way home we stopped by aunt kathy and uncle dan's to see daniel and then we went back to my house then we went to pick up conor then we went to the mall to see Knocked Up it was so funny but it was like sooooo long then we left and i dropped off conor then me and kel went back to my house and went to bed. then the next day, saturday the 23rd i got up really early cause i had to pack cause i was leaving for L.B.I with alexa, so i packed and shit then at like 11:30 i left to go to alexas i got there, on the way to LBI there was SO much traffic cause there was a motorcycle accident but we finally got there and the house was HUGE and i don't really remember what we did but i know the next day, sunday we went to the beach then monday we didn't because it was like raining out, then on tuesday brian came but he took a bus so we had to go into manahawkin to pick him up then we came back and went to the beach and then that night we went to play mini gold, me & alexa vs mike & brian, loser buys ice cream, mike and brian lost so we went to this dairy queen by the light house and we walked on this concrete thing like all the way around and then at the end me and brian climbed over the railing to walk on the rocks, they were so cool then idk mostly we just went to the beach, the next night we played mini golf again and mike and brian lost again so they had to buy ice cream again then the next day we played again and brian and mike lost again but we didnt play for ice cream because they didnt want to buy it again then on wednesday we rented 3 movies, hide and seek, wolf creek, and saw 3, and we watched hide and seek and wolf creek, pretty frightening, i'm not gonna lie. on thursday me and alexa went to sea side it was so sick i can't wait to go there again, then we like got into a fight because she was trying to like make me look stupid infront of brian and mike like all week and i was just pissed so i said something back then they went out but i was really tired so i just stayed in and then she didn't talk to me all day on friday which i didn't care cause i was with mike and brian too then we played mini golf with her parents, but we lost lol then we played again and it was me vs mike and i lost so i had to buy him ice cream and then that night me and brian went to the beach at like 11 and mike met us there a little while later and we were just sitting on the lifeguard chair talking and then we left and alexa was like arguing with her dad about me and she said some shit about me when we went to sea side, she told him i told her to park in a hotel parking lot so we didnt have to pay for parking which i did, but then she explained to me you needed a pass thing so i said okay, and parking was $7 and i paid five of it but she told her dad i gave her a hard time about not parking at a hotel? WTF and then she said other stuff that i didn't hear but i was fucking pissed and i haven't talked to her since, i went to bed at like 1:30 am and we got up at 6;30 i ate breakfast packed and came home, listened to my ipod the whole way home i was really so angry like i couldn't believe she said that to him, like she straight out lied, but whatever i had a good time for the most part and i got really tan. then today when i got home i got ready to go to maria and tom's wedding, it was fun i got to see a lot of people i haven;t seen in awhile like michael! then after the wedding we all went back to marias house but i came home and i've just been talking to mostly cody online and then adrienne and lexi and minator and joey called me, but i have to get up early so now im going. byee!
anyway on a better note, things have gotten so much better with corey you really have no idea. we had a really long talk about how i feel about how we never talk or hang out anymore and since then everythings been like so good, we got into one fight but it was basically me just over reacting about something but other than that i think our friendship got stronger within the last month i really do, i went to his graduation, i'm so proud of him i really am, even with everything he has on his plate with his anxiety and all he still managed to do it and we still manage to be friends even after everything i he really is my best friend cause even if we haven;t talked or hung out for awhile i know he'll always be there
i used to think jackie, ryans girl friend, hated me but I'm not so sure anymore, i never did anything to her and ryan locked his keys in his car one day and she was with him and i drove them back to his house and then i drove them back to the school, then the three of us and my sister went to a yankee game and it was fun i guess until ryan told me sean said he didn't like me then we got into a fight but we are good now lmao actually we just fought and then i went to the graduation and we were good there then kellyann was with me cause she came for a few days so after graduation we went back to ryans house and corey was there and sean and eddie came too, and sean and eddie got into this HUGE fight and it was really scary because sean threw a beer bottle that hit eddie and i really thought that eddie was going to kill him but then they made up and i dropped all the boys off at the all night graduation party and then me and kell came back to my house and went to sleep.
one night, the first night kell was here which was wednesday the 20th, omgg i went to the softball picnic and that was okay i guess, then when it was over i was with florinda and nicole milidantri and i was gonna drive them home and i fucking got stuck in a ditch at smith clove. omg it was probably the most embarassing thing ever, these guys had to hook a chain to the bottom of my car and pull me out, really i'm never going to smith clove again. lol anyway after that i just dropped florinda and nicole off at nicoles house then i went to pick up sammi and i went back to my house, then kellyann came then merry came down, then we left to go to sammi's house so she could get stuff to sleep over, then we went to pick up conor then we came back to my house and we were just sitting outside talking then danny munoz, johnny, and vinny all came but then vinny left then we went inside and watched the departed and they ate like all my food and then they all left around like 3 am and then me and kell and sammi went to sleep then the next day i brought sammi home then i had to babysit then i went to walden to bring kell home to get stuff to stay over again then on the way home we stopped by aunt kathy and uncle dan's to see daniel and then we went back to my house then we went to pick up conor then we went to the mall to see Knocked Up it was so funny but it was like sooooo long then we left and i dropped off conor then me and kel went back to my house and went to bed. then the next day, saturday the 23rd i got up really early cause i had to pack cause i was leaving for L.B.I with alexa, so i packed and shit then at like 11:30 i left to go to alexas i got there, on the way to LBI there was SO much traffic cause there was a motorcycle accident but we finally got there and the house was HUGE and i don't really remember what we did but i know the next day, sunday we went to the beach then monday we didn't because it was like raining out, then on tuesday brian came but he took a bus so we had to go into manahawkin to pick him up then we came back and went to the beach and then that night we went to play mini gold, me & alexa vs mike & brian, loser buys ice cream, mike and brian lost so we went to this dairy queen by the light house and we walked on this concrete thing like all the way around and then at the end me and brian climbed over the railing to walk on the rocks, they were so cool then idk mostly we just went to the beach, the next night we played mini golf again and mike and brian lost again so they had to buy ice cream again then the next day we played again and brian and mike lost again but we didnt play for ice cream because they didnt want to buy it again then on wednesday we rented 3 movies, hide and seek, wolf creek, and saw 3, and we watched hide and seek and wolf creek, pretty frightening, i'm not gonna lie. on thursday me and alexa went to sea side it was so sick i can't wait to go there again, then we like got into a fight because she was trying to like make me look stupid infront of brian and mike like all week and i was just pissed so i said something back then they went out but i was really tired so i just stayed in and then she didn't talk to me all day on friday which i didn't care cause i was with mike and brian too then we played mini golf with her parents, but we lost lol then we played again and it was me vs mike and i lost so i had to buy him ice cream and then that night me and brian went to the beach at like 11 and mike met us there a little while later and we were just sitting on the lifeguard chair talking and then we left and alexa was like arguing with her dad about me and she said some shit about me when we went to sea side, she told him i told her to park in a hotel parking lot so we didnt have to pay for parking which i did, but then she explained to me you needed a pass thing so i said okay, and parking was $7 and i paid five of it but she told her dad i gave her a hard time about not parking at a hotel? WTF and then she said other stuff that i didn't hear but i was fucking pissed and i haven't talked to her since, i went to bed at like 1:30 am and we got up at 6;30 i ate breakfast packed and came home, listened to my ipod the whole way home i was really so angry like i couldn't believe she said that to him, like she straight out lied, but whatever i had a good time for the most part and i got really tan. then today when i got home i got ready to go to maria and tom's wedding, it was fun i got to see a lot of people i haven;t seen in awhile like michael! then after the wedding we all went back to marias house but i came home and i've just been talking to mostly cody online and then adrienne and lexi and minator and joey called me, but i have to get up early so now im going. byee!