really now.
tonylou,
coz youre practically my only friend on LJ.
i dont know when i became "pretentious" or... "jealous" even. ive always tried to be a calm, mature and responsible person/partner. but in the past few years ive become less brit mikagami and more THIS (question marks coz i dont know who i am right now) and its quite annoying.
as a partner, this is reason enough not to settle down coz who the fuck am i?
i guess more than anything, i want to find myself. i think all that i was in the past is well, the past. i loved it and its over. and i think the only way im going to find myself now is if i reach out to more experiences.
which -- given the boring lifestyle i lead (i choose to lead) wont get me anywhere.
do i have to really have a lot of friends and go drinking and have a social life to learn more about life and myself? i have few friends and i cherish that fact. but also it isnt getting me anywhere.
ill be 30 in 5 years time, and i dont want to be a 30 year old screaming my teenage angst songs. y'know?
i have 2 new kitties. sakorako and a nameless yet kitty. wee wee!
coz youre practically my only friend on LJ.
i dont know when i became "pretentious" or... "jealous" even. ive always tried to be a calm, mature and responsible person/partner. but in the past few years ive become less brit mikagami and more THIS (question marks coz i dont know who i am right now) and its quite annoying.
as a partner, this is reason enough not to settle down coz who the fuck am i?
i guess more than anything, i want to find myself. i think all that i was in the past is well, the past. i loved it and its over. and i think the only way im going to find myself now is if i reach out to more experiences.
which -- given the boring lifestyle i lead (i choose to lead) wont get me anywhere.
do i have to really have a lot of friends and go drinking and have a social life to learn more about life and myself? i have few friends and i cherish that fact. but also it isnt getting me anywhere.
ill be 30 in 5 years time, and i dont want to be a 30 year old screaming my teenage angst songs. y'know?
i have 2 new kitties. sakorako and a nameless yet kitty. wee wee!