I am at the peak of nothingness...

[brisk_amore]

I figure if I set myself up for failure I can never get hurt. Because if I always plan of failing, when I finally do succeed it will feel sweeter than it ever has before. And then failure will be will be just a formality.

I am sick of getting hurt.
I am sick of crying myself to sleep I am sick of stress.
I am sick of not being wanted.
I am sick of being treated in a deameaning manor.
I am sick of my "friends" not acting like true friends.
I am sick of school.
I am sick of life.
I am sick of being tired all the time.
I am sick of not feeling like me.
I am sick of my lack of friend time.
I am sick of not having my alone time.
I am sick of people poking and prodding me like I am some test dummy.
I am sick of invading my privacy.
I am sick of not being able to tell people how I feel.
I am sick of bullshit.
I am sick of fake people.
I am sick of being mean.
I am sick of acting like a complete and total bitch.
I am sick of failure and success.
I am sick of myself.
I am sick of making people listen to me complain.
I am sick of NEVER being good enough.
Because no matter what I do or how hard I try, I will NEVER be good enough.