she fucking hates me
my mom said shed think about giving me a ride to and from bangor this weekend so i could go up and see jay. i told her that this was really important to me because it is and i was even crying. because i dont think anyone knows how extremely bad i want to go this weekend. and she told me she has to talk to my step father about it and he will probably say that they will give me a ride either there or back but not both. although i offered 20 bux now and 20 bux next week. i will find out tonight when she calls me, but just the tone in her voice when i was trying to tell her how much this will mean to me made me feel like she didnt give a fuck. and im sure she didnt because she is an incosiderate bitch who only fuckin cares about her damn self and no one else. i swear if she doesnt bring me im cutting off communication with her. seriously cuz i always fight with her anyway and my whole life she has always put herself first. and if she doesnt give me a ride at all cuz my stepfather said no, that will just be the last straw. and i will cut communication off with her and i will get my own damn car. it will be a lot of money but fuck it. im so sick of her damn shit. i know shes going to call back and say ill have to find my own ride on sunday although i told her there is no way i can get one. GOD I HATE HER!