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Woke up this morning after 3.5 hours of sleep, in the grip of my anger w/ the ex- & her nouveau. Then read the lj of a mutual friend, which lead me to believe she flies today. Want to believe this is a coincidence.
Generally when I start thinking in spiritual terms it means I am running from something. What?
O yeah, the burden of knowing that one must create something that has never existed before if one is to be happy. Best get on that.
Also, the anger will dissipate when I no longer believe I need women. One prerequisite to that is to recommit to my ercent discipline of not touching myself while thinking of them. The benefits of breaking this discipline have been outweighed by the ill effects of the anger. So I'm back at it. Starting now.
Generally when I start thinking in spiritual terms it means I am running from something. What?
O yeah, the burden of knowing that one must create something that has never existed before if one is to be happy. Best get on that.
Also, the anger will dissipate when I no longer believe I need women. One prerequisite to that is to recommit to my ercent discipline of not touching myself while thinking of them. The benefits of breaking this discipline have been outweighed by the ill effects of the anger. So I'm back at it. Starting now.