My life as of now...
So, almost done with my freshman year of college. Two weeks left. I don't really want to go back to the twp. Everything is so static there, I feel like I'm suffocating.
I also Have no job, so no money, so no awesome adventures.
I'm really going to miss my friends here. I am bad at keeping touch, and we're all so far away. I miss who I am here. I am different at home, I can't help it, I just change. I fall back in the shadows and I don't like it! But I feel like it's too hard to start over at home. I'm going back home. I feel like its hard to meet new people there.
It's not that i don't love my friends, I do. I just feel like I don't really fit anymore. I don't like who I have to be.
I am also a little depressed that i haven't found anybody. I feel like I might just be one of those people that is alone forever. Hah. I'm just not one to pretend I'm something I'm not. I'm not going to pretend to be impressed by these premed Briggs assholes, and I won't dumb myself down so they can be secure in the fact that they are more intelligent than I am. I just want someone cool. Who likes music and reading and is funny. This is just rambling, but I know no one reads this, but just in case, back to actual life concerns...
I am officially a biochemistry and molecular biology major. I am actually taking classes that count towards my major next semester and I'm nervous. I like chemistry, but what if I'm not as good at it as I think I am. These BMB classes will also be my first university science classes. i have been quite content in my little Lyman Briggs bubble. There's partial credit and small classes and no curves so there's less competition. I just don't know if I can handle real university life.
I'm also starting to rethink veterinary medicine. I really want a job in the medical field, but I'm starting to think I might want to be a MD. I just think that I might go crazy dealing with other veterinarians. I know I'm considered weird, but the people in the pre-veterinary program that I have met are possibly the most bizarre, socially awkward, and uncomfortable people I have ever met. But on the other hand, pre-med students are some of the most arrogant and self-centered people I have ever encountered. They are cut throat. It's scary that these are the people that are supposed to take care of the weak and frail.
I just don't know where I stand.
I also Have no job, so no money, so no awesome adventures.
I'm really going to miss my friends here. I am bad at keeping touch, and we're all so far away. I miss who I am here. I am different at home, I can't help it, I just change. I fall back in the shadows and I don't like it! But I feel like it's too hard to start over at home. I'm going back home. I feel like its hard to meet new people there.
It's not that i don't love my friends, I do. I just feel like I don't really fit anymore. I don't like who I have to be.
I am also a little depressed that i haven't found anybody. I feel like I might just be one of those people that is alone forever. Hah. I'm just not one to pretend I'm something I'm not. I'm not going to pretend to be impressed by these premed Briggs assholes, and I won't dumb myself down so they can be secure in the fact that they are more intelligent than I am. I just want someone cool. Who likes music and reading and is funny. This is just rambling, but I know no one reads this, but just in case, back to actual life concerns...
I am officially a biochemistry and molecular biology major. I am actually taking classes that count towards my major next semester and I'm nervous. I like chemistry, but what if I'm not as good at it as I think I am. These BMB classes will also be my first university science classes. i have been quite content in my little Lyman Briggs bubble. There's partial credit and small classes and no curves so there's less competition. I just don't know if I can handle real university life.
I'm also starting to rethink veterinary medicine. I really want a job in the medical field, but I'm starting to think I might want to be a MD. I just think that I might go crazy dealing with other veterinarians. I know I'm considered weird, but the people in the pre-veterinary program that I have met are possibly the most bizarre, socially awkward, and uncomfortable people I have ever met. But on the other hand, pre-med students are some of the most arrogant and self-centered people I have ever encountered. They are cut throat. It's scary that these are the people that are supposed to take care of the weak and frail.
I just don't know where I stand.