Does anyone get it?
It is very apparent to me that I am not seen by some of those that I call friends, as I would like to be. It may be my fault; in fact I know that it is. However, I feel somewhat incapable of altering my circumstance at the moment. I’m doing the best that I can with what I have. I want to be there for my friends in a much better way than I am able.
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I know you care about me. And if I ever, at all was important to you, that you'd try and call, or you'd be thinking about me. And you'd want me to know that. I do. You have even told me that you are sorry for not being able to do some of the things, like writing back sooner, or talking longer like you want to. And I've expressed to you that I understand and that I know where you are in your life wiht your job and why you don't do or why you do, do some of the things you do. I don't know what you are saying here, other than what you have already said, and some things that even if you didn't tell me about, I still knew that it was there and you have/had felt it.
I know that I contradict myself alot. Especially with very special people in my life. I remember telling you that I think about things before I say them most of the time, unless someone can get me really angry or extremely happy, then things just start flowing and I don't think about what I'm saying before I say it. And I know I say things in my journal about how I'm feeling that usually contradict what I have said to you before, or what not. I don't know, but I hope that doesn't show that I am not appreciative of your friendship and what you've said to me. Because I am. Really, I am. I try not to do that because it can come off to others that way. And you know how I am about things like that. I beat myself up over it, and I guess that's what I'm doing here.
You mean alot to me B. And so does your friendship.
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You have never been anything but supportive of me and how hard things are at times with my communication. You are so patient and understanding, the epitome of what a fantastic friend is. I understand your situation as well, how things are with you and I do appreciate very much that you have been sensitive of me through this “busy” time in my life. I am very much aware of some of the difficulties that you are facing, but regardless of your own struggles, you still seem to manage to be understanding of my situation. With some friends, believe it or not, my job and busy schedule have put our friendship in a precarious situation. But I know that yours and my friendship have remained unshaken. You have shown me that time and time again. Don’t “beat yourself up” about anything that concerns me, there is no need.
Thank you for not doubting me, thank you for always being there. Because in all reality, you’ve done nothing except show me that you really care and that your friendship and acceptance of me is anything less than unconditional. I know the friend I have in you. I am lucky to have someone so genuine that considers me her friend. You are a wonderful person.
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I love you and that is what happens when I love a person. I care for them! Please know that you have been a great friend to me and that I appreciate and am very fond of you and your friendship.
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