Day 20
Today was so much better than yesterday, per usual. I think it's two things. One, the kids respond better to me. Two, I've already screwed up with the other group so I know what to do with this one.
Ate at a pizza place (trust me, it's not american pizza, it's...well, korean) and saw Kevin (from the bus on Sunday). He smiled really big and I think he wanted to hug me but I had an icecream cone that had just leaked all over my hands. *sad sigh* Most of the rest of the night has been spent obsessing over that. Then he was our waiter and De gave him a hard time and I said he was cute, but he might have overheard, and then I couldn't make eyecontact, and I felt FAT. *sigh* So, hopefully I didn't ruin everything. Hopefully he'll still be happy to see me on Sunday.
I got paid today $600, which is more than I expected. I think I was only paid for a week...which means I'm making 2400 a month???? Hey, if that's what it turns out you won't see me complaining.
I'm also, now, offically 185 (did I say that before?). Well. 185.2 I'm pretty sure by tomorrow eveing it'll be something like 184.8. So I'm counting it. I'll put a picture up when I'm 175, because then I'll be half way to my target weight and also I'll weigh what I did as a freshman at MSU.
I have a lot of stories from today, but I think I'll private those. Also, I'm tired. Tomorrow is lesson planning. A lot of lesson planning.
Saturday I try and climb the mountain again.
Several people are now saying they'll come to church with me and I find that I don't want them to come, because I don't really know the people at the church yet, and I'm afraid I'll get pushed to the back by these dominant personalities and never get to make friends or be close to anyone here. I'm afraid they'll take that from me. Yes, I'm completely shallow. *sigh*
Well, I'm going to go. Later people.