I'm back bitches
So yeah.. I am home from BMT (basic military training). I have been medically discharged from the Air Force due to severe stress fracutres. ok on a scale from 1-4.. here's how bad it is. 4 being the worst.. I have grade 4 in my right knee.. grade 3 in my left.. grade 2 in my ankles and grade 3 in my mid feet. I am cripple. Mom makes me use a damn wheel chair if I go anywhere.. and I have to use my crutches any other time. I am on mortin 800's. I may need surgery on both my knees.. but I dunno if I have medical insurance anymore so we'll have to see on that.
But in the 5 weeks I was there in BMT I can say that I feel way more grown up a totally different person more confident, 20lbs lighter. I can eat a cheeseburger, grilled cheese sandwich, a plate of frenchfries and 3 liquids in uder 10 minutes. I can also put the toilet seat up, and fold the toilet paper when I am done. I can shine some bad ass boots. And OMG u got chrome? I can clean mad chrome!
I would never take the experience away. I have no regrets about going. But I am glad to be home. I just don't quite feel like I am really here though. I can't look any of my family members in the eyes because I know I let them down. I feel ashamed to be home because I couldn't finish. I feel like I was lost at sea for years and when I get home everything is different to me... or I was in a coma for a month and I have to get used to things.. and everything is happening at once.. I have to get a job.. heal.. find out if I have insurance cuz I may need surgery... all at the same time my family and steven are fighting over who gets to spend time with me. I feel more stressed out here than I did in BMT. And in BMT I was desperately close to wanting to kill myself.
I did make a few good friends in BMT like Blozy. She is one of my new best friends. We were both there for eachother when we found out we were going home. I left before her. I miss her and can't wait for her to come home! She lives in chicago. She is one of those friends that I know I could be friend's with when I'm like 80. She is so awesome. I can't wait for D and Terri to meet her. She is so cool.
But yeah.. I'm home. Got a new cell phone 313-258-9070 for anyone who cares to call. Living with Steven again. Getting married next fall. My ring is kick ass. Hoping to get an apartment in Jan. with Blozy Steven and Rob. Praying I don't neeed surgery. Need to find a job next month. Cuz I'm not supposed to do anything until then.. I am supposed to be a vegtable. Also hoping Steven gets me a puppy (hint hint). Also getting my tongue pierced and a new tattoo this week. Anyway peace out niggas.
But in the 5 weeks I was there in BMT I can say that I feel way more grown up a totally different person more confident, 20lbs lighter. I can eat a cheeseburger, grilled cheese sandwich, a plate of frenchfries and 3 liquids in uder 10 minutes. I can also put the toilet seat up, and fold the toilet paper when I am done. I can shine some bad ass boots. And OMG u got chrome? I can clean mad chrome!
I would never take the experience away. I have no regrets about going. But I am glad to be home. I just don't quite feel like I am really here though. I can't look any of my family members in the eyes because I know I let them down. I feel ashamed to be home because I couldn't finish. I feel like I was lost at sea for years and when I get home everything is different to me... or I was in a coma for a month and I have to get used to things.. and everything is happening at once.. I have to get a job.. heal.. find out if I have insurance cuz I may need surgery... all at the same time my family and steven are fighting over who gets to spend time with me. I feel more stressed out here than I did in BMT. And in BMT I was desperately close to wanting to kill myself.
I did make a few good friends in BMT like Blozy. She is one of my new best friends. We were both there for eachother when we found out we were going home. I left before her. I miss her and can't wait for her to come home! She lives in chicago. She is one of those friends that I know I could be friend's with when I'm like 80. She is so awesome. I can't wait for D and Terri to meet her. She is so cool.
But yeah.. I'm home. Got a new cell phone 313-258-9070 for anyone who cares to call. Living with Steven again. Getting married next fall. My ring is kick ass. Hoping to get an apartment in Jan. with Blozy Steven and Rob. Praying I don't neeed surgery. Need to find a job next month. Cuz I'm not supposed to do anything until then.. I am supposed to be a vegtable. Also hoping Steven gets me a puppy (hint hint). Also getting my tongue pierced and a new tattoo this week. Anyway peace out niggas.