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the last of what has held us together grows weaker and we're all so different and we can never stay the same as we are now. not even for each other. as sean goes to france i finally realize. we are all doing our own thing. and i feel myself coming undone once again. like i did the last time i had to deal with this much stress. and life goes in circles and it hurts. and its only a very short matter of time before i have no friends again and everyone hates me and i have lost once again. and this time i have so much more to lose. and i'm not really sorry. but hate me just the same. goodbye.