I'm So Fucking Happy Now
Choking on all of the feeling
That I'm swallowing in
Tasting the failure on my lips
That I've lead in
Ok, so everything is cool. It took a while and I've learned more than you can ever guess. It was hard but I realized so much and am happy now for her. And for me. I also have decided I wanna study abroad the rest of my time in Japan. Gary will help me with stuff. He's so crazy, he is so clueless about a lot of stuff now a days. Last weekend I went to King of Prussia dn Korean Market. I've been spending a lot of money recently. I got a lot of clothing, but I love it, and I stocked up on food.
And this is my last chance for survival
A last ditch effort to cure my ache
This week was good, I went on a lot of walks with people. Meet a new person named Miranda, she did my radio show with me too. It was great. And This weekend I will watch a movie, do work, relax, then Sat winter ball (I bought a new suit but can't find a yellow shirt or pants in my size, suit is green and yellow plaid) so I have to wear the same thign I always wear. Then maybe go to a party, or on fri nite, and Sun I will cook! yay. Ramond took some pics from badminton and of me and people, I'll add some soon. Ai and I went to the Black culture dinner and speaker and then we found her a new roommate in Smith and went for a walk. Shes great. Last weekend we talked for 4 hours.
We're so vain aren't we?
We're so proud and empty
We're left leaning on our only intrigue
The lies that I've told won't bury us whole
They won't find us time
I also have noticed some girls have been taking notice of me. At first I dind't like it, but now I am all for it, and having fun, going out, random adventures, going to eat, dates, parts, ect. How it was before I was with Max. During that time I was so bored with myself. Staying here... I was depressed, and unhappy. I am my old self now and crazy and wanna do stuff. I wanna go on a date! And I love my friends.
This is the end of the story that I can forget
This goes far beyond our loyalties
And we feign as a shield
That's teeming with guilt and resonance
But we held our heads so high
We have not yet defeated failure