Cold and Boredom
I'm currently at work and there is nothing to do - though there is much boredom to be had.
I've been doing lots of packing - and lots of thinking - as I am moving from Lawrence in less than two weeks. I am feeling very...conflicted about this. I am very excited to move out of Kansas, which is a major life goal of mine, and living in a new part of the country will be fun. I am also, however, feeling a lot of regret. I feel like I haven't done enough memorable things this summer to warrant a peaceful and fulfilled departure. I regret not just the swift passage of summer but also that of the whole school year. I haven't seen my friends enough and really for the last year I have felt pretty lonely. I know this is only my fault as I had so much to do for classes that at the end of the day all I wanted to do was go to bed. I feel like I haven't seen my family enough and I know that they are going to have a hard time adjusting our 1,000 mile separation as opposed to our 40 mile separation of the last four years. I'm going to miss seeing Stephen's grandparents once a week not only for the amazing home-cooked meals but also for their company and care as my second family. It's really easy to let the days pass. And that's exactly what I let happen and this makes me very sad.
12 days and counting.
I've been doing lots of packing - and lots of thinking - as I am moving from Lawrence in less than two weeks. I am feeling very...conflicted about this. I am very excited to move out of Kansas, which is a major life goal of mine, and living in a new part of the country will be fun. I am also, however, feeling a lot of regret. I feel like I haven't done enough memorable things this summer to warrant a peaceful and fulfilled departure. I regret not just the swift passage of summer but also that of the whole school year. I haven't seen my friends enough and really for the last year I have felt pretty lonely. I know this is only my fault as I had so much to do for classes that at the end of the day all I wanted to do was go to bed. I feel like I haven't seen my family enough and I know that they are going to have a hard time adjusting our 1,000 mile separation as opposed to our 40 mile separation of the last four years. I'm going to miss seeing Stephen's grandparents once a week not only for the amazing home-cooked meals but also for their company and care as my second family. It's really easy to let the days pass. And that's exactly what I let happen and this makes me very sad.
12 days and counting.