okay well..........
I'm moving to Florida
1.) My dad is getting married to Lavern (his girlfriend of 1 month)
2.) I have no car here
3.) I have no money
4.) I have to move out when my dad gets married
5.) I want nothing to do with my dad, Lavern and their soon to be adopted son.
6.) I'm lonely and depressed as fuck here.
7.) My brother wont let me use his car.
8.) I have no phone
9.) I have no way of getting a job.
Vicky's father was kind enough to say I could live with them for free. They have a car I can HAVE. He said he can get me a job because he has connections. I'll be with Vicky all of the time and her friends so I wont be so lonely. They said I can bring Tobey.
I'm just not so sure how well I'm going to handle being away from my mom and my family. Especially Jamie and my friends.. I'll die. It's going to be so fucking hard. But I realized I'm completely fucking stuck here. I have nowhere to go. No one to help me. No car.. no job.. no phone.. no life! I hardly ever see my friends and when I do .. it's Jamie maybe once or twice a week.
I'm not going to be able to handle the heat.. and no snow. :O. But I'm sure I'll manage.
It's just right now.. Florida has a lot more to offer then here. I'll be able to get a fresh start and I wont be stuck like I am here. It's best for me.. It's an oppourtunity.. something of which I don't have here at all. This is My UP when all I've been going lately is DOWN.
I told my dad already. He's freaking out on me. He just left to go for a car ride. He does that when he's super upset - just like me. He said he didn't mean to drive me away and he doesn't want me moving out of state. He never meant to get rid of me. I told him I have NOTHING here. No life. All I have is deep depression and lonliness and I can't handle it anymore. Florida may be my big break. The one thing that helps me get on my feet. I can't let an oppourtunity like this just pass me by. I need to do what's best for ME. For once!
Plus. Why the hell would I want to live with he and Lavern and their adopted son? Come on!!!! That's NOT my family.. it's his new happy fucking family that I want NOTHING to do with. Call me immature or whatever but he's a fucking pansy ass. He's only marrying her because he's never been alone in his life and he's not handling it very well. First he was a huge slut and now he's getting married to the first women who became overly obsessed with his anorexic obsessive compulsive ass. UGH! I hate it! HOW CAN HE GET MARRIED. THEY'VE BEEN TOGETHER A MONTH AND HE'S ALREADY CHEATED ON HER 3 TIMES!! My God he's so fucking stupid.
And Seriously... I feel terrible for his adopted son whenever they adopt one. My dad is one of the worst fathers in the history of bad fathers. That kid is going to be one fucked up kid.. I swear to god. My dad is a FREAK!. >:O!
I'm just freaking out so bad right now. My stomach hurts and I'm shaking. I know this is best for me but it's such a huge step. It's going to take time for it to sink in all the way so I can accept it head on.
BurnSiameseKiss: im freaking out :|
BurnSiameseKiss: my brother said i cant use his car
BurnSiameseKiss: my dad is getting married
BurnSiameseKiss: i have to move out in a year
BurnSiameseKiss: man im so fucked.
Sky 220: holy shit
Sky 220: come down herrrrrrr
BurnSiameseKiss: i would but my life is here
Sky 220: :-(
Sky 220: did u get my letter?
BurnSiameseKiss: nope
Sky 220: do u get all ur mail?
BurnSiameseKiss: usually yeah
BurnSiameseKiss: when did you send it?
Sky 220: uhhhhhhhhhhhh saturday
Sky 220: i think
Sky 220: u should get it tomorrow
BurnSiameseKiss: it shouldve been here today.. probably will get here tomorrow
Sky 220: yeah
BurnSiameseKiss: man. i hate this
BurnSiameseKiss: i freak out all the time. allllll the time
Sky 220: :-(
BurnSiameseKiss: vicky.. like.. if i moved down there would your dad let me live with you guys? :\
Sky 220: yes
BurnSiameseKiss: do you guys have places of employment close? that i could possibly walk to?
Sky 220: we have an impala
Sky 220: u could like drive
Sky 220: :-P
BurnSiameseKiss: ah. would you guys let me have my puppy? ;/
Sky 220: uhm..yes!
Sky 220: lol
BurnSiameseKiss: I'm seriously thinking about this vicky
BurnSiameseKiss: are you sure your dad would let me live there?
Sky 220: yes
BurnSiameseKiss: did you ask him?
Sky 220: yes
BurnSiameseKiss: ;o
Sky 220: lol my dad told me to geta bunk bed
Sky 220: lol
BurnSiameseKiss: lol. now.. all i gotta do is find a way to get all my shit down there
Sky 220: how much money would it cost to take a bus?
BurnSiameseKiss: no clue. but i have stuff to bring down there too. like all my belongings :|
Sky 220: yeah i know
Sky 220: im thinking
Sky 220: :-X
Sky 220: i dunno, koz i cant drive up therr koz school is starting next week
BurnSiameseKiss: hmmm
Sky 220: hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
BurnSiameseKiss: brb :'(
Sky 220: k
BurnSiameseKiss: i told him i was moving
Sky 220: eh what he say
BurnSiameseKiss: hes freaking out
Sky 220: eep
BurnSiameseKiss: he said he wasnt gunna throw me out
BurnSiameseKiss: that hed convince her i could live with them
BurnSiameseKiss: but.. i told him florida is better for me
BurnSiameseKiss: living with you.. would be better for me
Sky 220: yeah
Sky 220: plus my dad said he could find u a job
BurnSiameseKiss: yeah see. i have NOTHING here
BurnSiameseKiss: no car
BurnSiameseKiss: no money
BurnSiameseKiss: no phone :|
BurnSiameseKiss: and no one to help me get out of this rut
BurnSiameseKiss: im depressed 24/7 and lonely as fuck
Sky 220: :-(
Sky 220: poor thing :-(
Sky 220: i just have one rule at my house
BurnSiameseKiss: yeah?
Sky 220: i NEED the phoneline at 9pm so i can talk to daniel lol, anytime b4 or after like 10....i dont care.....lol
BurnSiameseKiss: haha it's okay ;-). i probably wont use the phone much. i dont know anyone in florida and if i called people.. it would be people in Michigan and I wouldnt want to put long distance on your phone
Sky 220: okies lol, well...u can go on the internet ...but thats on the line that i talked to daniel wit lol
BurnSiameseKiss: lol
BurnSiameseKiss: i dunno what to think right now.
Sky 220: just breathe
Sky 220: its a big thing to think about
Sky 220: i know this
BurnSiameseKiss: yeah. well no doubt it's best for me
Sky 220: well call me when u think everything through
BurnSiameseKiss: i dont have a phone
Sky 220: 352-861-**** is my home
Sky 220: 352-425-**** is my cell
BurnSiameseKiss: i dont have a phoneee
Sky 220: use a pay phone?
Sky 220: lol
Sky 220: shit
Sky 220: well
BurnSiameseKiss: no money lol
Sky 220: let me know on IM when u think everything through
BurnSiameseKiss: okay
Sky 220: =o)
1.) My dad is getting married to Lavern (his girlfriend of 1 month)
2.) I have no car here
3.) I have no money
4.) I have to move out when my dad gets married
5.) I want nothing to do with my dad, Lavern and their soon to be adopted son.
6.) I'm lonely and depressed as fuck here.
7.) My brother wont let me use his car.
8.) I have no phone
9.) I have no way of getting a job.
Vicky's father was kind enough to say I could live with them for free. They have a car I can HAVE. He said he can get me a job because he has connections. I'll be with Vicky all of the time and her friends so I wont be so lonely. They said I can bring Tobey.
I'm just not so sure how well I'm going to handle being away from my mom and my family. Especially Jamie and my friends.. I'll die. It's going to be so fucking hard. But I realized I'm completely fucking stuck here. I have nowhere to go. No one to help me. No car.. no job.. no phone.. no life! I hardly ever see my friends and when I do .. it's Jamie maybe once or twice a week.
I'm not going to be able to handle the heat.. and no snow. :O. But I'm sure I'll manage.
It's just right now.. Florida has a lot more to offer then here. I'll be able to get a fresh start and I wont be stuck like I am here. It's best for me.. It's an oppourtunity.. something of which I don't have here at all. This is My UP when all I've been going lately is DOWN.
I told my dad already. He's freaking out on me. He just left to go for a car ride. He does that when he's super upset - just like me. He said he didn't mean to drive me away and he doesn't want me moving out of state. He never meant to get rid of me. I told him I have NOTHING here. No life. All I have is deep depression and lonliness and I can't handle it anymore. Florida may be my big break. The one thing that helps me get on my feet. I can't let an oppourtunity like this just pass me by. I need to do what's best for ME. For once!
Plus. Why the hell would I want to live with he and Lavern and their adopted son? Come on!!!! That's NOT my family.. it's his new happy fucking family that I want NOTHING to do with. Call me immature or whatever but he's a fucking pansy ass. He's only marrying her because he's never been alone in his life and he's not handling it very well. First he was a huge slut and now he's getting married to the first women who became overly obsessed with his anorexic obsessive compulsive ass. UGH! I hate it! HOW CAN HE GET MARRIED. THEY'VE BEEN TOGETHER A MONTH AND HE'S ALREADY CHEATED ON HER 3 TIMES!! My God he's so fucking stupid.
And Seriously... I feel terrible for his adopted son whenever they adopt one. My dad is one of the worst fathers in the history of bad fathers. That kid is going to be one fucked up kid.. I swear to god. My dad is a FREAK!. >:O!
I'm just freaking out so bad right now. My stomach hurts and I'm shaking. I know this is best for me but it's such a huge step. It's going to take time for it to sink in all the way so I can accept it head on.
BurnSiameseKiss: im freaking out :|
BurnSiameseKiss: my brother said i cant use his car
BurnSiameseKiss: my dad is getting married
BurnSiameseKiss: i have to move out in a year
BurnSiameseKiss: man im so fucked.
Sky 220: holy shit
Sky 220: come down herrrrrrr
BurnSiameseKiss: i would but my life is here
Sky 220: :-(
Sky 220: did u get my letter?
BurnSiameseKiss: nope
Sky 220: do u get all ur mail?
BurnSiameseKiss: usually yeah
BurnSiameseKiss: when did you send it?
Sky 220: uhhhhhhhhhhhh saturday
Sky 220: i think
Sky 220: u should get it tomorrow
BurnSiameseKiss: it shouldve been here today.. probably will get here tomorrow
Sky 220: yeah
BurnSiameseKiss: man. i hate this
BurnSiameseKiss: i freak out all the time. allllll the time
Sky 220: :-(
BurnSiameseKiss: vicky.. like.. if i moved down there would your dad let me live with you guys? :\
Sky 220: yes
BurnSiameseKiss: do you guys have places of employment close? that i could possibly walk to?
Sky 220: we have an impala
Sky 220: u could like drive
Sky 220: :-P
BurnSiameseKiss: ah. would you guys let me have my puppy? ;/
Sky 220: uhm..yes!
Sky 220: lol
BurnSiameseKiss: I'm seriously thinking about this vicky
BurnSiameseKiss: are you sure your dad would let me live there?
Sky 220: yes
BurnSiameseKiss: did you ask him?
Sky 220: yes
BurnSiameseKiss: ;o
Sky 220: lol my dad told me to geta bunk bed
Sky 220: lol
BurnSiameseKiss: lol. now.. all i gotta do is find a way to get all my shit down there
Sky 220: how much money would it cost to take a bus?
BurnSiameseKiss: no clue. but i have stuff to bring down there too. like all my belongings :|
Sky 220: yeah i know
Sky 220: im thinking
Sky 220: :-X
Sky 220: i dunno, koz i cant drive up therr koz school is starting next week
BurnSiameseKiss: hmmm
Sky 220: hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
BurnSiameseKiss: brb :'(
Sky 220: k
BurnSiameseKiss: i told him i was moving
Sky 220: eh what he say
BurnSiameseKiss: hes freaking out
Sky 220: eep
BurnSiameseKiss: he said he wasnt gunna throw me out
BurnSiameseKiss: that hed convince her i could live with them
BurnSiameseKiss: but.. i told him florida is better for me
BurnSiameseKiss: living with you.. would be better for me
Sky 220: yeah
Sky 220: plus my dad said he could find u a job
BurnSiameseKiss: yeah see. i have NOTHING here
BurnSiameseKiss: no car
BurnSiameseKiss: no money
BurnSiameseKiss: no phone :|
BurnSiameseKiss: and no one to help me get out of this rut
BurnSiameseKiss: im depressed 24/7 and lonely as fuck
Sky 220: :-(
Sky 220: poor thing :-(
Sky 220: i just have one rule at my house
BurnSiameseKiss: yeah?
Sky 220: i NEED the phoneline at 9pm so i can talk to daniel lol, anytime b4 or after like 10....i dont care.....lol
BurnSiameseKiss: haha it's okay ;-). i probably wont use the phone much. i dont know anyone in florida and if i called people.. it would be people in Michigan and I wouldnt want to put long distance on your phone
Sky 220: okies lol, well...u can go on the internet ...but thats on the line that i talked to daniel wit lol
BurnSiameseKiss: lol
BurnSiameseKiss: i dunno what to think right now.
Sky 220: just breathe
Sky 220: its a big thing to think about
Sky 220: i know this
BurnSiameseKiss: yeah. well no doubt it's best for me
Sky 220: well call me when u think everything through
BurnSiameseKiss: i dont have a phone
Sky 220: 352-861-**** is my home
Sky 220: 352-425-**** is my cell
BurnSiameseKiss: i dont have a phoneee
Sky 220: use a pay phone?
Sky 220: lol
Sky 220: shit
Sky 220: well
BurnSiameseKiss: no money lol
Sky 220: let me know on IM when u think everything through
BurnSiameseKiss: okay
Sky 220: =o)