You steal my heart and you take my breath away
Would I be out of line if I said I miss you?
Dedicated to: Mayhemzy cos she’s the one I text at fucking 3 am just cos I need to rant about someone. She’s my go to person and most of all…she’s an hilarious bitch J
Subject: Sophie and Sian have broken up a few months ago but are still the best of friends.
Writer’s note: This fic is really important to me, it’s really personal and I needed to write it. Why? Cos sometimes you need to write stuff to get over it or to realise some stuff.
“Do you mind if Joe comes tonight?” Sian asked the brunette who was lying on her bed.
“Errr…it’s alright..” Sophie lied. She really didn’t like Sian’s boyfriend, Joe.
Sian wasn’t stupid, she knew Sophie wasn’t a fan but she also knew that her ex would tell her if she wanted them to be alone.
“I’m sorry, I should’ve told you sooner..”
“Don’t. It’s fine. Just promise me I won’t be the third wheel.” The brunette was practically begging the blonde to promise her.
“I promise.”
“Right, I should go attack the popcorn machine and get cracking before he gets here”
Sophie never ever called Joe by his name; she always referred to Sian’s boyfriend as he or him. Why? Because saying his name burned her tongue like a flame would. She never liked him but she knew she couldn’t tell Sian what to do. They were exes after all, right?
“Soph..”
“Yeh?”
“Just don’t make that much of a mess this time yeh?” Sian giggled remembering the night they had spent 3hours cleaning after that stupid old popcorn machine.
“Oy! You got nerve you bitch! That machine is evil, I’m telling you!” Sophie defended herself as she tried not to giggle along with the blonde.
“I remember, but we can’t get rid of it!”
“Why’s that?”
“Cos it makes the best popcorn you goon! What do you think? You’re the one that keeps saying it!” Sian laughed.
“Oh fuck me I’m famous!” Sophie sighed before leaving her ex’s room. She always said those words whenever Sian was right and she wasn’t. Sian used to do it and even though they had broken up it was a habit Sophie still had.
“You don’t need to be famous for me to do that” The blonde whispered thinking Sophie hadn’t heard her.
The brunette smirked at she heard her ex’s words. “Good to know” She thought to herself.
“It’s between you and me now oldie” Sophie mumbled as she struggled to take the old popcorn machine out of the cupboard.
After taking the machine out, Sophie gathered all the ingredients she needed for the best popcorn ever. Popcorn seeds? Check. Butter? Check. Salt? Check. Huge pink bowl? Check. It’s was a tradition the girls had, their popcorn always had to be in Sian's favourite bowl.
Sian was leaning against the door frame watching Sophie talking to the popcorn machine. The blonde was clearly amused by what she saw.
“Need help babe?” The blonde giggled not realizing she had just called Sophie “babe”.
“Me? Never. Little Greta here likes talking to me!”
“Greta? Who the fuck is Greta?” Sian burst out laughing.
“Greta is our popcorn marker you goon!” Sophie was trying o hard to keep a straight face, she thought she was so funny and by the looks on Sian’s face, she was right.
“You are one of a kind”
“I’ve never heard you complain before” Sophie flirtatiously said.
“I still ain’t complaining babe” The way Sian would always wink at Sophie always made the brunette’s heart melt.
Knowing that Sian was probably just playing, Sophie decided to change the subject. “You should go get your Dora blankie before the movie starts because I know you’re going to beg me to go get it and there is no way I’m missing one tiny little scene from that movie”
“what? I would NEVER do that” Sian tried convincing her ex.
“Who is it you’re trying to fool here? Cos I know you Sian. I mean I’ve dated you for eighteen months, 3 weeks and..”
“and 6 days. I know Soph. I could never forget” The blonde finished Sophie’s sentence.
A comfortable silence fell between the girls. They couldn’t stop staring at one another with a true smile on their faces. Sian decided she better get her blankie before Joe knocked on her front door.
“Right, so I’ll go get my blankie. Do you want kookamunga?”
“How do you know I have it with me?”
“Cos you never go anywhere without him.” Sian simply stated. Kookamunga was a little stuffed koala bear that Sian had given Sophie for her 20th birthday. Koala bears had always been Sophie’s favourite animal and wherever she went; Sophie would always bring Kookamunga because it meant she had a bit of Sian with her.
“Yes, please I think he’s under your blankie.”With that the blonde went to her room to retrieve the stuffed animal and the blanket.
Sophie heard the doorbell just as she was about to join Sian in the room. She decided to go open the door because Sian wasn’t coming out of her room She didn’t hear it I guess. The brunette thought to herself as she opened the front door.
“Oh you.”
“Errr Hi to you too Joe.” Sophie spoke as coldly as the guy had.
“Whatever. Where is she?” The jerk asked.
“SIAN is in her room. She will be out in a minute, you can wait on the couch” Sophie made sure she had emphasized the word Sian just to piss him off even more.
“No. I’ll go join her..don’t wait up” He winked before going to the blonde’s room.
Sian had heard the entire conversation and she couldn’t believe how rude and embarrassing her boyfriend was.
“Er no. You’re not joining me. Who the fuck do you think you are talking to Sophie like that? She said I would be out in a minute which means DO NOT come join me.”
Sophie smirked to herself when she saw how pissed off Sian was. She knew the blonde more than anyone else did and she knew that whatever the boyfriend would say, he would make it worse for himself.
“you don’t mean that baby” The word baby made Sophie sick to her stomach. No one was ever allowed to call her baby except for me. She thought to herself as she heard the blonde speak.
“I told you before. DON’T call me baby. Only one person is allowed to call me like that and that person ain’t you.”
The girls glanced at one another briefly before grabbing the missing items for their fun evening ahead.
“Anyway, what are we watching?” Joe asked settling down on the couch.
“The blindside” the girls answered in unison.
“Again?”
“Yes. If you have a problem you know where the fucking door is.” Sophie spat.
Sian always liked this bitchy side Sophie had. She was so feisty and so hot whenever she was bitchy that it made her heart skip a bit.
“Oh shut..”
“JOE. If you say one more word, I’ll be the one fucking kicking you out. Not Sophie.” Sian cut him off.
The brunette giggled to herself. “Ready for the movie?”
“Sure am!” Sian said enthusiastically.
Sophie pressed play and the movie started. She was expecting the blonde to snuggle up to her boyfriend but to her surprise, she saw Sian lean in and settle against her. The blonde’s head was Sophie’s shoulder and Sian was holding onto her ex’s arm while she placed her legs on her current boyfriend’s lap.
“You never change do you?” Sophie chuckled.
“What are you talking about? She never does this when we watch movies.” Joe said.
“Clearly you don’t know her…” Sophie whispered loud enough for Sian to hear but low enough for Joe to miss it.
“What was that?”
“Drop it Joe. Shut your mouth and watch the movie.” Sian ordered.
Joe was fuming inside; he couldn’t believe that once again Sophie had the upper hand. He couldn’t believe that Sian always picked Sophie over him. He didn’t know how to deal with it so he did what he does best, kept it inside and then make the blonde pay.
After a while, Sophie had to go to the washroom. “I’ll be back”
“oka, hurry up” Sian softly said. She was already missing Sophie and she hadn’t even been gone more than 30 seconds.
When Sophie came back into the room, she felt sick to her stomach. Joe was all over Sian, shoving his tongue down her throat. The brunette was furious, she couldn’t believe Sian was doing that to her. “She promised. I can’t believe this…” She thought to herself.
She stormed into Sian’s room and packed her stuff as quickly as she could. She wanted to leave, she couldn’t stay there and feel like shit because her ex had broken her promise. After shoving everything in her bag, she went straight for the door and noticed that the blonde still hadn’t parted her lips from the jerk.
“She’s gone too far.” Was the only thought that went through the brunette’s mind as she slammed the front door of the dorm.
The sound of the door being slammed caused Sian to jump.
“SHIT!”
“Don’t you dare go after her.” Joe warned angrily.
“I’d rather die than be without her” Those were the last words Sian spoke before running after Sophie.
The brunette was running down the staircase and she knew the blonde was afraid her cos she could hear her call after her.
“SOPHIE! WAIT”
She kept going. She knew that if she let the blonde explain herself, she would go back without even thinking about it twice.
“SOPHHH! LET ME EXPLAIN!”
Sophie couldn’t take it anymore.
“WAS HE WORTH IT? WAS HE REALLY WORTH RUINING US?” She shouted
Sian was taking by surprise by the venom in Sophie’s voice. “I’ve really done it this time..” The blonde thought to herself.
“Sophhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!’
Sian decided that she had to go after Sophie no matter what. She couldn’t lose her, not again.
As soon as Sophie stepped out of the building, she noticed that the weather had changed suddenly. It went from a very sunny day to a massive storm. The wind was blowing and the rain was coming down like there was no tomorrow.
“GREAT! THIS IS JUST FUCKING GREAT!” Sophie shouted towards the sky.
By the time she reached her car, she was soaked to the bone. She threw her bag in the trunk and turned to meet those beautiful eyes she could never resist. She was won over again. Sian had won her heart all over again just by looking at her with those beautiful but sad eyes.
“Soph…please let me explain. I’m begging you”
“Sian…don’t”
“Sophie. Just give me a chance to explain and then you can do whatever you want”
That was a deal Sophie could agree on because it gave her the chance to run if she wanted but it also made Sian happy because she had the opportunity to explain herself.
“Deal.”
Sian smiled. She knew she had to make this good because deep down she knew it was her last chance to make it right with Sophie.
“I know what it looked like but you got it all wrong babe…”
“Sian. Don’t “babe” me” Sophie interjected.
“I’ve always called you babe or baby and it’s not going to change now. But that’s not the point. The point is that JOE came onto me. He was pissed cos I always choose you over him and he doesn’t know why. So he thought he’d take advantage of you being away to seduce me into sleeping with him. I didn’t want to but he was forcing himself on me. I was trying to push him off. The only way I managed to do that was by telling him that I’d rather die than be without you.”
Sophie was shocked. She was glued on her spot and she didn’t know what to do or say.
“I never should’ve let you go. I should’ve kept you by my side. I never thought we’d be as close when things got sour with us. I should’ve fought for us and I didn’t and I’m truly sorry for that. But I am here now. And I want you back.” There was no turning back anymore for Sian. She had spent the last 6-7 months trying to convince herself that she didn’t love Sophie anymore but she finally admitted to herself and to Sophie, she wasn’t over her and she never would be.
“What?” Was all Sophie managed to say.
“I want you back. I still love you Sophie. There you go, I said it.”
“Wow…I…I just…I never stopped loving you Sian..”
“Would I be out of line if I said I miss you?” Sian said in a singsong voice.
“Would I be out of line if I said I miss you too?” Sophie replied. Those lines were part of one of their songs. One song they kept on listening over and over again after their first and only fight ever.
“Give me one last chance please. I promise I’ll always make you happy and I’ll always love you.” The sincerity in Sian’s voice was heart-warming. It was all Sophie ever wanted to hear.
“You know I’ll always give you as many chances as you want babe. I love you too much to even think about being without you”
“Would you mind kissing me now?” The blonde bit her lip in hopes of making Sophie weak in the knees.
“How could I refuse such an offer?” Sophie whispered before leaning in and kissing the love of her life.
After pulling away, Sian knew she had more to say to Sophie.
“I’m sorry about you know..?”
“Sian. Don’t say the word. Please. It’s in the past and that’s where it’s going to stay.” Sophie didn’t want to think about the reason they had broken up in the first place. She didn’t want to be reminded that her girlfriend cheated on her with her best friend. She was over that, she had forgiven the blonde about two months after their breakup.
“I know but I am truly sorry. For everything. The nasty messages, THAT thing I won’t mention, and all the times I’ve made us both cry.” The sincerity in Sian’s voice was overwhelming. Sophie knew she genuinely meant her apology.
“I forgave you the day I laid my eyes on you again two months after our breakup. One look your way and I had fallen in love all over again. I forgave you in that instant and I promised myself that day that I would always forgive you no matter what.”
Sian’s heart was racing. Sophie goes and says something like that just when the blonde thought it was impossible for her to fall even more in love with the brunette.
“I don’t know what to say other than.. I love you so much”
“That’s all I need you to say Sian”
Sian did exactly what Sophie asked. “I love you so so so so much Sophie. Forever, I promise”
“I’ll love you forever and a day”
“I’ll hold you to that promise” Sian whispered as she got closer to the brunettes lips.
“It’s a promise I intend to keep” Sophie breathed before closing the gap between their lips.
**THE END**