(no subject)
darling
if i wasn't so concerned
with absolute perfection
you'd have gotten this
days/weeks/ages ago.
justifying your love for someone
was so much easier, when you
didn't have to worry about
putdowns/turndowns/rejection
and in that case
could just continue living your life
like they were never really that
important to you in the first place.
and if i tried to count the nights
i spent, pouring over this desk
staring blankly at an empty page
[waiting for the right words
to flow freely through my
nervously bitten fingertips]
it would be like counting
the endless number of words/phrases/expressions
scribbled onto pages crumpled
and thrown into the corner of this room.
i want to be able to freeze time
rewind/fastforward/play back all
of the moments, where i somehow
cant recall what i was feeling
and how it was possible for you
to make me feel so beautiful.
i want to take your smile
your to-die-for/nothing else matters
smile, and take it with me wherever i go
as a constant reminder, that somewhere/
sometime someone smiled at me
with the intensity you did.
i want to snatch every single star
from your oh-so-gorgeous
staring/watching/glaring/
judging eyes
so i can have some closure
in knowing you wont look at anyone else
the exact same way.
i want a souvenir of us
so if ever/sometime/someday im alone
i can find some sort of solace in knowing
that one day not so long ago
i was truly happy.
if you want more of my poetry..and want to learn more about me *gasp* at the SAME time... go to my website
http://www.angelfire.com/emo2/hopelesslyhopeful
and sign the guestbook please. <3
yeah
poetry seems to be the only way i can express my confusing emotions.
theend.