part of me is missing lately..
so today was fun. waking up was a SUCCESS. 830 am sharp. im proud of my accomplishment.
hannah and jen came at about 1 pm. and i showed them how i try to dance on my pointe shoes. i cut my foot today from it.. ow. i suck. then we went to wal*mart and market basket. jen saw "astrid" which is a complete contradiction. she looks NOTHING like her. NICE jen. nice try. asshole.
then mcskelly and muscleman came for dinner. it was okay. i held in tears the whole dinner time. it sucked. i dont know what my problem was. i was feeling sad and confused.. and didnt want to go back to school. but now its no problem. playing poker with everyone helped =) which i ALMOST won! damn skelly.
sometimes i feel like im such a little kid. compared to everyone else. everyone can drink wine and talk about money making. and everyone has such good determination. and lindsay and meg are so pretty. i wish i could be like them. they both look great. theyve lost weight, ive gained it. they just have better luck than me. and im so confused about crap lately. i dont know what to think of myself. its really quite conflicting. it sucks. and after dinner i cried upstairs for awhile just to let things out. it was just a combination of a lot of things. recent, past. you name it. but im good now. and i need to get to bed.
my bladder is going to explode. not even shitting you. i need to go now. NIGHT! =)
<3 lauren
meg was just talking about urine covered jigglypuff notes. arousing? YOU KNOW IT!
hannah and jen came at about 1 pm. and i showed them how i try to dance on my pointe shoes. i cut my foot today from it.. ow. i suck. then we went to wal*mart and market basket. jen saw "astrid" which is a complete contradiction. she looks NOTHING like her. NICE jen. nice try. asshole.
then mcskelly and muscleman came for dinner. it was okay. i held in tears the whole dinner time. it sucked. i dont know what my problem was. i was feeling sad and confused.. and didnt want to go back to school. but now its no problem. playing poker with everyone helped =) which i ALMOST won! damn skelly.
sometimes i feel like im such a little kid. compared to everyone else. everyone can drink wine and talk about money making. and everyone has such good determination. and lindsay and meg are so pretty. i wish i could be like them. they both look great. theyve lost weight, ive gained it. they just have better luck than me. and im so confused about crap lately. i dont know what to think of myself. its really quite conflicting. it sucks. and after dinner i cried upstairs for awhile just to let things out. it was just a combination of a lot of things. recent, past. you name it. but im good now. and i need to get to bed.
my bladder is going to explode. not even shitting you. i need to go now. NIGHT! =)
<3 lauren
meg was just talking about urine covered jigglypuff notes. arousing? YOU KNOW IT!