dont cry, dont raise your eyes. its only a teenage wasteland.
im watching benny and joon tonight. i miss it. too bad no one has seen it, so they cant share the joy of it.
went to walmart with mum. looked for a cd, but they had no good ones. so i browsed the toy section, but of course they only had those stupid "bratz" dolls that look like crack babies. walmart isnt always fun when youre alone.
and mum picked me up pumps from salvation army, and got me a new coat. i love it. then hannah and jen came over. we mainly just talked, ate, and looked at old yearbooks. typical. we didnt get a chance to make anything. but perhaps thats a good thing?
im so tired. but then i can never sleep. which is weird, eh? i wish i could fall in love with someone. i say ive loved people before, but i dont think i really have. im not begging for a boyfriend, i dont even like "going out" with people. its pretty pointless. but loving someone who loves you back is different. i wish i could have it. it seems like no one ever wants the kind of relationship that i do. why cant it just be romantic and not sexual? why cant couples just kiss, hold hands, or just make out? and why cant guys look at girls for who they are not how they look? oh well. anyways...
i need to try and sleep. goodnight <33
i need to rent donnie darko this weekend or ill go crazy.