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it was no longer than a year ago that i would spend most of my weekends with erin, alison and lindsay. i had never been more happy in my life. we were care free and we did whatever the hell we wanted. im trying to figure out how all of thet has changed. yeah, they are still my friends..but i barely see them..outside of school. now i have new best friends who mean more to me than the world and we do different things and i haver a job and a boyfriend. and i feel like people that expect something from me will be disappointed. i cant do everything. i wish that i could.i feel so restricted. evryone else seems so happy and careless, yet i feel as if i have a rope around my neck and if i dont stick to the ruitine..someone will pull the rope too tight. so by chance if anyone was wondering why i might blow them off or they think i forget about them..i dont. i think about you all the time. and one day the rope will come off. hopefully soon.
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