Left Bangor at 4:30 , got home around 10
I;m so fucking terrified. I just got home from seeing my dad for the night.Met my mom in Bangor with the Mercadies. I'm sure you're aware that theres a fucking huge storm outside. We got in a car accident and I swear I saw my fucking whole worthless life flash in front of me. I'm so shaken and scared but thankful. I'm alive! And when I got home i had a fucking argument with my mom about school and shit. I was crying but I don't think I was crying about our argument, I was crying cause I was so scared. i didn't want my mom to know I was crying about it cause then she would be freaked out and she would sttart crying and I hate that. I don't like crying with her sometimes. I don't even like crying at all in frotn of anyone. It makes me feel weak and piteful, worthless. I wanted to scream so bad when we were in the car accident, but I knew it would totally flip my mom out, so I held my breath and acted all brave for my mom, but really I was screaming and crying inside....I'm so scared.