Masterpost - Stargate SG1: Beloved
FANDOM: Stargate SG1
TITLE: Beloved
GENRE: Gen
CATEGORY: Angst, Drama, H/C, Friendship, Episode Related
RATING: R
SEASON: One (immediately following Hathor)
PAIRING: none
WORD COUNT: 40,730
SUMMARY: Hathor is gone. The Earth is safe. But the victory has come with a painful price for the men of the SGC. Though Hathor no longer controls their minds, her drugs aren't letting them go without a fight. As if the physical damage she did wasn't enough, withdrawal manipulates their emotions, amplifying the most extreme. Jack and Daniel fight to to deal with their experiences at Hathor's hands, while one of them turns on the one he's sworn to protect, and the other turns on himself. But Hathor didn't leave empty-handed, and she'll stop at nothing to regain control of what she left behind.
DISCLAIMER: Stargate SG-1, its characters and situations, are copyright MGM, Greenburg/Anderson, Gekko, Top Secret, and Kawoosh! No infringement on, or challenge to, their status is intended. This piece of fiction was written strictly for the entertainment of other fans, and I am gaining no form of compensation for it.
MORE DISCLAIMERS: This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to actual people, living or dead, or actual places and locations, is purely coincidental.
AUTHOR'S NOTES:
So, this is a bit more than a story to me. This is the end of a very, very long journey.
I started writing this story in October 2003, after having seen the episode for a second time (the first was in October 1997, and I was only writing Star Wars at that time) and reading an editorial - I think it was on the old Pink Khaki site - about how unrealistic and out-of-character everyone's reactions to Daniel's revelations at the end of the episode were, especially Jack's. I started thinking about it, and decided that maybe they didn't have to be so out-of-character after all, and I started writing what was supposed to be a short little episode tag that would explain everything (yes, I was gonna fanwank it).
Obviously, "short" and "little" are two words that don't often apply to me. ;)
It's been a lot of years between then and now, filled with stops and starts (more stops than starts, obviously), plot changes, rewrites, edits, PoV changes, and even a failed attempt at posting it as a WiP in the hopes that it would inspire me to finish it. Then along came another round of stargate_summer. I looked at what I had written - already well above 16,000 words - and decided to finish it once and for all.
I missed my original posting date, because it wasn't ready yet. I could have written faster, I could have rushed it, but it wouldn't have been the story I wanted it to be. I've already done that with one story, rushed through the writing and left out half of the story just to make a deadline, and I don't ever want to do it again. Also, the issues that I've attempted to tackle in this story are too sensitive, and too important, to gloss them over for the sake of speed. And after eight years of writing, I figured that I owed it to myself, my artists, and my readers (that's you :D) to do it right, deadline or no. And so here I am, during Posting Amnesty week, finally putting it up. (It was supposed to be up last night, but thanks to LiveJournal's little "problem," that didn't happen either.)
So, with all that out of the way: the list of people who are the whole reason this story exists.
ms_3m was with me from the beginning, reading my pitiful little scenes and giving me advice on how to flesh them out, make them stronger, make the voices sound more like the people they were meant to be coming out of, and just generally kicking my ass into shape. I leaned on her heavily through the first three chapters, and large chunks of the later sections, and I'd never have made it to this point without her. I only hope that this is close to the story she always imagined it could be.
whisper99 is the most kickass alphabet(a) on the planet. When it comes to plot holes and characterization issues, she can slice and dice with the best of them, and every story I've written that she's had a hand in is better for her having been part of bringing it to life. I can't thank her enough for her friendship, her advice, or - when necessary - her ability to distract me. As it turns out, this is the story I was writing the night she sucked my soul into Supernatural, so make of that what you will.
switch842 stepped in as the full-time beta from Chapter Five on, and I can't begin to thank her enough for it. No matter what it is - spelling, grammar, punctuation, character voice, dropped or missing details - if it's broken, if it's wrong, she finds it. On top of that, she's been the biggest cheerleader I've had these past three months, kicking me in the ass when I need it, telling me to stop screwing around and write, staying up with me when she should be sleeping, and just generally being there, and being awesome. I couldn't have asked for any better, and I'm not sure quite what I did to deserve her in the first place.
erinanderson came aboard at quite literally the 11th hour (no, seriously, I sent her the draft just a little before 11pm on Saturday night), and there's no way I can ever repay her for it. She gave me a perspective that I desperately needed to keep me from going overboard with the emotions that the entire story is built around. She also combed through for canon errors, making sure that the fic is as canon-compliant as possible. For her, my unending thanks and gratitude.
As always, if you think this is good, thank them. If you think it sucks, blame me.
Also, as this is a BigBang fic, it comes with some incredible art done by some incredibly talented people. The banner and cover you see on this page are just the beginning. Go check it out and let them know how fantastic their art is, and how much they rock.
Art Post #1: click here by kj_svala
Art Post #2: click here by csichick_2
WARNINGS: (highlight to read) dark themes, language, violence, torture, attempted suicide, attempted rape. Canon mind control, canon drugging, canon rape. We all know what happened to Daniel during "Hathor" - this story will deal with some incredibly sensitive and potentially triggering issues, including discussion of PTSD triggers themselves and some statements that could be construed as victim blaming. Please tread carefully if you might be adversely affected by these subjects. If you would like more details before you read, please don't hesitate to contact me.
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Part One (Chapters 1 & 2) | Part Two (Chapters 3 & 4) | Part Three (Chapters 5 & 6)
Part Four (Chapters 7 & 8) | Part Five (Chapters 9 & 10)
Epilogue