AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
ok so I really fucked up I stepped on the scale on the 15th and i was 170 and I was SO happy I had finally lost the 9 lbs I gained from x-Mas so then I thought to myself I'll just have a lil reward for all my hard work but like the fucking retard I am I had more than a LIL reward I had 5 lbs of a reward I was so pissed I almost started to cry right their in the bathroom. Everything I had worked so HARD for... GONE in just hours so, exhausted with frustration I just went to bed thinking since I had just eaten that most of that weight was food so it might have really been 2 or 3 lbs so the next day it was the same 5 lbs and I swore I was going to starve myself well I failed AGAIN I went out with my bf and we went to a fast food place I got a salad which I didn’t eat all of but then we went to his mothers house and she orders Chinese food and she got me fried rice so I had to eat some ya know not to look like an ass when I got home I worked out for like 30 min all together and I was 177 and now I'm down to 175 oh joy T.T now 2m I have no choice but not to eat a thing maybe some fruit b/c I have to go to work so I need SOME energy but I'm just so depressed