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I'm so frustrated on some levels.
Ponys:
The lease I was looking at fell through (she decided to lease him to a family member at the last minute, ARGH). I'm upset because I can't find many horses that suit what I want around here. Most people that are offering leases are offering their A level hunter jumpers, apparently. Um...no. I really just need someone mellow to plink around on once a week, so that I can relax and have fun (TRAILS) but also have the chance to work on my canter. I love Junior intensely, but he's so freight train Throughbred-y sometimes that I still find myself tensing up before the canter.
I might have to start prodding message boards. Surely someone arund here has a their perosonal horse they can't devote enough time to? It doesn't even have to be a horse I can practice anything dressagey with, just...
WoW/RL Crap related:
In some respects, splitting the guild has gone well. In other respects, it's gone terribly.
On the raiding front, things go smoothly. I quasi-raid lead--in reality, I assmeble the raid and then the MT kind of takes over, a situation I don't mind in the slightest. Hopefully he doesn't, either. >.< I'm just not much of a raid leader in general. Or even a guild leader, but apparently I'm somehow magically charming enough that no one minds? More like, I'm the only one willing to do it. Ha.
Of course I hardly seem to talk to some of the people we "left behind"--Andy, Ky, Evee. You know, I didn't want to "leave" them "behind"--but I just couldn't GM BoO anymore. I could not. I was stressed, felt unappreicated, and more often than not, ganged up on.
Steve...gah. Steve. You know, I'm starting to hate going out to dinner with him and Josh. Or doing anything with those two together. Conversation will invaribly steer towards website stuff, or work stuff--you know, conversations I can't contribue to, so I'm this awkward and BORED third wheel. I end up feeling isolated and very lonely. I got upset over it last time, and Josh tried to talk about toher things--but there's dear self absorbed Steve, derping along, going RIGHT back to talking about their new clan website. Then again I forget that not everyone is as...outwardly focused as I am. You want me to consider you a FRIEND, Steve? Start treating me like one and not some awkward accessory of Josh. Fuck.
Fucl fuck fuck this PMS depression/rage state.
Ponys:
The lease I was looking at fell through (she decided to lease him to a family member at the last minute, ARGH). I'm upset because I can't find many horses that suit what I want around here. Most people that are offering leases are offering their A level hunter jumpers, apparently. Um...no. I really just need someone mellow to plink around on once a week, so that I can relax and have fun (TRAILS) but also have the chance to work on my canter. I love Junior intensely, but he's so freight train Throughbred-y sometimes that I still find myself tensing up before the canter.
I might have to start prodding message boards. Surely someone arund here has a their perosonal horse they can't devote enough time to? It doesn't even have to be a horse I can practice anything dressagey with, just...
WoW/RL Crap related:
In some respects, splitting the guild has gone well. In other respects, it's gone terribly.
On the raiding front, things go smoothly. I quasi-raid lead--in reality, I assmeble the raid and then the MT kind of takes over, a situation I don't mind in the slightest. Hopefully he doesn't, either. >.< I'm just not much of a raid leader in general. Or even a guild leader, but apparently I'm somehow magically charming enough that no one minds? More like, I'm the only one willing to do it. Ha.
Of course I hardly seem to talk to some of the people we "left behind"--Andy, Ky, Evee. You know, I didn't want to "leave" them "behind"--but I just couldn't GM BoO anymore. I could not. I was stressed, felt unappreicated, and more often than not, ganged up on.
Steve...gah. Steve. You know, I'm starting to hate going out to dinner with him and Josh. Or doing anything with those two together. Conversation will invaribly steer towards website stuff, or work stuff--you know, conversations I can't contribue to, so I'm this awkward and BORED third wheel. I end up feeling isolated and very lonely. I got upset over it last time, and Josh tried to talk about toher things--but there's dear self absorbed Steve, derping along, going RIGHT back to talking about their new clan website. Then again I forget that not everyone is as...outwardly focused as I am. You want me to consider you a FRIEND, Steve? Start treating me like one and not some awkward accessory of Josh. Fuck.
Fucl fuck fuck this PMS depression/rage state.