i don't want to leave you

[brigid21]

I see disapointment in your eyes, along with love
i feel like i am watching a clock tick, my faith keeps me wondering
when will you say, baby i love you im coming home
this blade is my release, i see my blood run down and for that moment i no longer feel quilty for the pain i caused for a moment
you have probably already forgotten about it but it stays with me every thought every moment
i remember what you smell like, the way you chew on your lip when you are thinking real hard
but you wont -give in
i am to pay for what everyone else in your life has done to you, who is reaping the benefits?
by the time you give in i will be long gone, i am barely holding together now
our future... and what it could be
but all you see is the fighting
you think is this even worth it? and you say no to yourself and sigh
i love you but when is enough enough
when is it ok to throw in the towel and say, i love you but i can no longer be on this journey with you
i wanted nothing but your happiness.....and i see your dissapointed eyes
and it kills me.