OK, it's time again...
Vio, I'm so sorry you got mugged - I'm glad you're alright!!!! And isn't that breathtaking zing something to live for?? Good for you, darlin'!
Christmas went well, uneventful. Spent actual Christmas day driving to get the kids and then at Chris's family's house. I took Thursday and Friday off, so I was alone with all three kids..ACK! lol Sunday we had Christmas in Columbus. I got some crystal wine glasses, but also fell AGAIN, and this time fugged up my ankle. I didn't break it, but it doesn't feel right now, and sometimes it aches. Sunday my Mom came down and stayed until New Year's day. It was really nice to have her here, someone to talk to who understands my work misery. And it is miserable.
BTW, anyone never having seen the second "Babe" movie, Pig In The City, don't rush out and do it now. It was bought for the kids by a dear friend for New Year's eve, and all of us, EVEN Lorelei, found the experience painful. Truly one of the worst I have ever seen.
I called my doctor's office the day before New Year's to talk about treating my depression. I told them I never sleep enough, I can't seem to eat enough to get full, my emotions are like a roller coaster and when they sink they hit rock bottom, I'm snapping at my kids and my husband, I don't do anything I love to do, and on top of it all I'm forgetting everything, getting dizzy spells again, and I have fallen 4 times in the past three weeks. This concerns me because I NEVER fall...stumble yes, fall no. And I wasn't dizzy when I fell, or tripping on anything..one minute I'm walking along, happy as can be, the next minute my happy ass is on the floor. So far I've scared one knee and nearly broken an ankle. It's fun.
ANyway, apparently this concerned them too, because they asked me to go to an emergency room to be seen. I said "For depression?!!?" and they said yes, that when dizzy spells and falling are included, sometimes depression becomes a symptom and not an illness. I of course did NOT go, because I am not going to walk into an EMERGENCY ROOM for depression. That's not what they're there for. But I will call my doctor back next week and be more selective when sharing my symptoms so I can get an appointment and hopefully some help.
We've seen Shay twice since he came home, and I must say it's been a joy to see him. He thankfully has not become one iota like Chris's other military friend, Matt...he's the same sweet loveable Shay. The only real difference is the shorter hair. :o) The second time he came was to take back his mega computer, though. *sniffles* I'm having mega withdraw. But I still love him.
Elanor, I hadn't really found anything, and I'm sorry I haven't gotten back to you. :o( What about dried herbs or flowers like lavendar and heather tied with brocade ribbons, like hanging on the chairs on the ends of rows? I think ribbons and gourds and dried flowers when I think medeival...touches of gilt and burgundy and forest green. Maybe someone could paint something that looked like stained glass or a mosaic with a knight and his damsel and a dragon? It might take some serious work in what precious little time you have left, but it wouldn't have to be perfect and might be gorgeous for behind the layman on hanging near the cake. Oooo, and clove studded oranges for the tables, that was something I thought of, too. Very old world scent and look..>I'm all about atmosphere. Am I headed in the right direction, here?
Misty-cat, I loved the Harry Potter movies...I thought the first was cute, and the second was very well done. Do you really not care for them??? I think you would make an excellent teacher, FWIW. You've certainly taught me many lessons in forgiveness and kindness. How much harder can a bunch of kids be?? IF nothing else, I'm at least LARGER. ;o) The furniture sounds lovely, BTW.
Jen, thank you for calling me. You gave me so much to think about, and an anchor to hold onto. I don't know what will happen or how, but I know I have my fishsticks, and dammit, that's all that counts.
Oh, friends. I love you all so much, and haven't been much of a friend to any of you. I suck. I hope someday to make that up to you, especially as it's been nigh on two years that I have sucked. But I'm seeking help now, and maybe when I get my mind settled, my life will finally settle. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAA! That was funny, wasn't it????
Chin up and keep walking, m'loves.
Christmas went well, uneventful. Spent actual Christmas day driving to get the kids and then at Chris's family's house. I took Thursday and Friday off, so I was alone with all three kids..ACK! lol Sunday we had Christmas in Columbus. I got some crystal wine glasses, but also fell AGAIN, and this time fugged up my ankle. I didn't break it, but it doesn't feel right now, and sometimes it aches. Sunday my Mom came down and stayed until New Year's day. It was really nice to have her here, someone to talk to who understands my work misery. And it is miserable.
BTW, anyone never having seen the second "Babe" movie, Pig In The City, don't rush out and do it now. It was bought for the kids by a dear friend for New Year's eve, and all of us, EVEN Lorelei, found the experience painful. Truly one of the worst I have ever seen.
I called my doctor's office the day before New Year's to talk about treating my depression. I told them I never sleep enough, I can't seem to eat enough to get full, my emotions are like a roller coaster and when they sink they hit rock bottom, I'm snapping at my kids and my husband, I don't do anything I love to do, and on top of it all I'm forgetting everything, getting dizzy spells again, and I have fallen 4 times in the past three weeks. This concerns me because I NEVER fall...stumble yes, fall no. And I wasn't dizzy when I fell, or tripping on anything..one minute I'm walking along, happy as can be, the next minute my happy ass is on the floor. So far I've scared one knee and nearly broken an ankle. It's fun.
ANyway, apparently this concerned them too, because they asked me to go to an emergency room to be seen. I said "For depression?!!?" and they said yes, that when dizzy spells and falling are included, sometimes depression becomes a symptom and not an illness. I of course did NOT go, because I am not going to walk into an EMERGENCY ROOM for depression. That's not what they're there for. But I will call my doctor back next week and be more selective when sharing my symptoms so I can get an appointment and hopefully some help.
We've seen Shay twice since he came home, and I must say it's been a joy to see him. He thankfully has not become one iota like Chris's other military friend, Matt...he's the same sweet loveable Shay. The only real difference is the shorter hair. :o) The second time he came was to take back his mega computer, though. *sniffles* I'm having mega withdraw. But I still love him.
Elanor, I hadn't really found anything, and I'm sorry I haven't gotten back to you. :o( What about dried herbs or flowers like lavendar and heather tied with brocade ribbons, like hanging on the chairs on the ends of rows? I think ribbons and gourds and dried flowers when I think medeival...touches of gilt and burgundy and forest green. Maybe someone could paint something that looked like stained glass or a mosaic with a knight and his damsel and a dragon? It might take some serious work in what precious little time you have left, but it wouldn't have to be perfect and might be gorgeous for behind the layman on hanging near the cake. Oooo, and clove studded oranges for the tables, that was something I thought of, too. Very old world scent and look..>I'm all about atmosphere. Am I headed in the right direction, here?
Misty-cat, I loved the Harry Potter movies...I thought the first was cute, and the second was very well done. Do you really not care for them??? I think you would make an excellent teacher, FWIW. You've certainly taught me many lessons in forgiveness and kindness. How much harder can a bunch of kids be?? IF nothing else, I'm at least LARGER. ;o) The furniture sounds lovely, BTW.
Jen, thank you for calling me. You gave me so much to think about, and an anchor to hold onto. I don't know what will happen or how, but I know I have my fishsticks, and dammit, that's all that counts.
Oh, friends. I love you all so much, and haven't been much of a friend to any of you. I suck. I hope someday to make that up to you, especially as it's been nigh on two years that I have sucked. But I'm seeking help now, and maybe when I get my mind settled, my life will finally settle. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAA! That was funny, wasn't it????
Chin up and keep walking, m'loves.