*rises like a ghost, slowly from the silence*
HA! :o)
I have been reminded by three or four of you out there that just because I feel nothing and have nothing to say doesn't mean that there aren't people who love and care for me and wish to read even my nothing thoughts. I apologize for this extended silence. Nothing really dramatic has happened, I've not lost any limbs or digits and I still know how to type...I just have trouble making myself sometimes. But as I've said so many times before, I haven't stopped loving you all...just stopped being good at being able to express it.
So what's up? Well, my son is in the highschool marching band this year. He's only in 7th grade, so we consider this to be a true show of the level of his talent with the drums, and I am very proud of him. :o) My middle daughter and I are wrapped in conflict as she gets ever older - I see reflections of my mother and I. My youngest has joined the soccer team and is having a blast. She really adores it. Which is awesome! :oD Hubby is doing well, too...overworked and under paid, but then, I'm biased. ;o)
What about me? Well, I made the Dean's List again. I take my meds every day. I don't exercise like I should but that's because the Adderall makes me eat so little, I'm letting my body work itself down on reduced calories and then I'll tone. lol! I've lost almost 50lbs since May, and this makes me a very, very happy Brightie. My exhusband causes more and more drama every day, but most days I am not able to feel the pain of it....I am simply numb. I applied for disability, finally, so now just need to wade through the messy, confusing process.
I took Rainy's advice and found a skill in SecondLife...now I have three jobs. LOL! I got a job as an administrative assistant, as a texturer helping a builder, and I opened a maternity clinic. It gets hectic, and has yet to show me real life profit, but I enjoy it. Which is, I think, all that matters. :o)
Other than that, I'm afraid, there's just a big ol' goose egg. No drama, no inner wanderings of my mind, no intense highs and lows, no volunteering for a million things and running myself absolutely ragged and burning the candle at both ends...none of that, any more. Now, just me. Soaking up the silence for a while. Loving you guys from a distance and hoping you still love me. And, I promise...I am still here.
I have been reminded by three or four of you out there that just because I feel nothing and have nothing to say doesn't mean that there aren't people who love and care for me and wish to read even my nothing thoughts. I apologize for this extended silence. Nothing really dramatic has happened, I've not lost any limbs or digits and I still know how to type...I just have trouble making myself sometimes. But as I've said so many times before, I haven't stopped loving you all...just stopped being good at being able to express it.
So what's up? Well, my son is in the highschool marching band this year. He's only in 7th grade, so we consider this to be a true show of the level of his talent with the drums, and I am very proud of him. :o) My middle daughter and I are wrapped in conflict as she gets ever older - I see reflections of my mother and I. My youngest has joined the soccer team and is having a blast. She really adores it. Which is awesome! :oD Hubby is doing well, too...overworked and under paid, but then, I'm biased. ;o)
What about me? Well, I made the Dean's List again. I take my meds every day. I don't exercise like I should but that's because the Adderall makes me eat so little, I'm letting my body work itself down on reduced calories and then I'll tone. lol! I've lost almost 50lbs since May, and this makes me a very, very happy Brightie. My exhusband causes more and more drama every day, but most days I am not able to feel the pain of it....I am simply numb. I applied for disability, finally, so now just need to wade through the messy, confusing process.
I took Rainy's advice and found a skill in SecondLife...now I have three jobs. LOL! I got a job as an administrative assistant, as a texturer helping a builder, and I opened a maternity clinic. It gets hectic, and has yet to show me real life profit, but I enjoy it. Which is, I think, all that matters. :o)
Other than that, I'm afraid, there's just a big ol' goose egg. No drama, no inner wanderings of my mind, no intense highs and lows, no volunteering for a million things and running myself absolutely ragged and burning the candle at both ends...none of that, any more. Now, just me. Soaking up the silence for a while. Loving you guys from a distance and hoping you still love me. And, I promise...I am still here.