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instead of bitching about my life, i am keeping perspective.
and reminding myself not to spend small amounts of money on frivolous things i don't need. the clutter only ends up taking away from any enjoyment i might still have, in the long run.
shopping addiction can be just as devastating as any other, as when people run themselves into bancruptcy - but there are the more subtle ways, when the energy and time spent outweigh any benefits. so i'm keeping perspective. i'm doing good...i'd been collecting stuff in the hallway to "donate" to a lion's club yard sale but that's been cancelled so i'm just taking it to goodwill or something. it's so not even worth it to craiglist a lot of it or have a yard sale of my own. but i want the space back. i'm reclaiming space but it's like two steps forward, three back. so everything i did last week has been undone and my living room doesn't look like there was any order to my chaos, yet again.
this reflects my emotional state, to be sure. but i must progress, move forward, quit bitching about it, and just change it. the first step will be stop spending frivolously and as much as i've "gotten better" about it, i still struggle and don't avoid every single needless purchase. i want to be there. i need to be there. i need to quit buying scrapbooking supplies, for instance, since you know what? i have NEVER ACTUALLY SCRAPBOOKED IN MY LIFE!
and reminding myself not to spend small amounts of money on frivolous things i don't need. the clutter only ends up taking away from any enjoyment i might still have, in the long run.
shopping addiction can be just as devastating as any other, as when people run themselves into bancruptcy - but there are the more subtle ways, when the energy and time spent outweigh any benefits. so i'm keeping perspective. i'm doing good...i'd been collecting stuff in the hallway to "donate" to a lion's club yard sale but that's been cancelled so i'm just taking it to goodwill or something. it's so not even worth it to craiglist a lot of it or have a yard sale of my own. but i want the space back. i'm reclaiming space but it's like two steps forward, three back. so everything i did last week has been undone and my living room doesn't look like there was any order to my chaos, yet again.
this reflects my emotional state, to be sure. but i must progress, move forward, quit bitching about it, and just change it. the first step will be stop spending frivolously and as much as i've "gotten better" about it, i still struggle and don't avoid every single needless purchase. i want to be there. i need to be there. i need to quit buying scrapbooking supplies, for instance, since you know what? i have NEVER ACTUALLY SCRAPBOOKED IN MY LIFE!