Rantrantrant
I think I have senioritis. I'm managing to maintain my grades through sheer dumb luck, and the barest minimum of effort. Really, I think I'd be failing my World Religions class if he ever graded the work, because I never manage to turn it in on time. I probably am failing. The man grades on a goddamn check+++ system in college, what the fucking hell. And I'm pulling stupid shit that I haven't done since high school, like late nighters and making myself sick because I'm stressed. I don't want to have worked this hard, and come this far, to reach my downfall.
I can't remember the last time I exercised, and that totally shows if you look at my weight watchers book. I've been yo-yoing, and even though my diet is 95% on track, I just can't manage to exercise. I'm in a rut, and I just keep sinking deeper. I have felt so much more amazing since becoming a pescetarian, but that isn't enough. My goal when I started weight watchers was to be 50 lbs lighter by graduation, but I just don't see that happening healthily now. I think I'm also sick with myself because I was 2 lbs away from having a loss of 20 pounds about 8 weeks ago ... and as of Saturday I'm 2.4 lbs away from having that same loss. A more realistic goal is to lose those remaining pounds, and then by graduation hopefully have lost 10-15 more.
You'd think that getting accepted into UCF would've lifted my spirits, but it actually looks like I'm worse than I was before. I know that I can't keep this up when I'm up there because it will kill me.
I know that all of my issues are tied together, I just don't know how to break the cycle. I think a good slap in the face would do me wonders.
I can't remember the last time I exercised, and that totally shows if you look at my weight watchers book. I've been yo-yoing, and even though my diet is 95% on track, I just can't manage to exercise. I'm in a rut, and I just keep sinking deeper. I have felt so much more amazing since becoming a pescetarian, but that isn't enough. My goal when I started weight watchers was to be 50 lbs lighter by graduation, but I just don't see that happening healthily now. I think I'm also sick with myself because I was 2 lbs away from having a loss of 20 pounds about 8 weeks ago ... and as of Saturday I'm 2.4 lbs away from having that same loss. A more realistic goal is to lose those remaining pounds, and then by graduation hopefully have lost 10-15 more.
You'd think that getting accepted into UCF would've lifted my spirits, but it actually looks like I'm worse than I was before. I know that I can't keep this up when I'm up there because it will kill me.
I know that all of my issues are tied together, I just don't know how to break the cycle. I think a good slap in the face would do me wonders.