'Real life' and other mythical concepts

Dec 01, 2014 12:33

I posted an early Christmas gift for someone 'round these parts today! Okay, reeally early, but I love spreading out the joys of Christmas and birthdays so you don't blow your load all in one day, so to speak.

I haven't been writing fic much because I'm working on trying to start (self-)publishing/selling my original fiction, which is great and exciting ... except that I haven't actually, you know, published a single thing yet, which means I've been writing all this time in a vaccuum, and after a while, that gets depressing, because you start to feel like nothing you do has any impact. Anyway, I'm pretty nervous about it--it's a different story when you're asking people to pay to read your work, however little you may charge--but on the other hand, it's something I've wanted to do my whole life, so I'm also really excited about it.

Meanwhile, I'm about to start three days of a VERY limited diet for one of the medical treatments I've been getting (that actually seem to be helping, YES!!), after which will be another week and a half of a fairly limited diet. I've been a bit overweight for years now (mainly due to these digestive issues), but due to this treatment, I'm getting quickly way skinnier ... which I thought would be fun, but is actually a little scary. Not like I think I'll die from starvation or anything, but it's just weird to be having to adjust one's self-image so abruptly. Not to mention that people in my family don't look good when they're too skinny. Ah, well. Hollywood, here I come!

Anyway ... so all that's why I haven't been around as much lately--I've been reading but not participating much, also due to depression. I hope to remedy my lack of participation, but I can't make any promises. Just know this Thanksgiving weekend that fandom--and of course y'all--my lj friends particularly--are one of the major things I'm very thankful for, and you're all very much in my heart all the time, not just this time of year. It's just that at this time of year, you get to say it straight out without anyone wondering why you're waxing emotional. Love ya.

thoughts, thanks

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