Mar 28, 2007 21:57
Eyes betray the soul and bear it's thinking.
Beyond words they say so many things to me.
A stranger here reborn it seems
awaking wonders deep in me.
If nothing's ventured nothing's gained
so I must seize the day.
And fighting time so hard I pray
that this moment lasts forever.
And will the world stay standing still at least for me.
Through my eyes stare into me.
I bear my heart for all to see.
With my face turned to the sun there ever standing still.
It wasn't you it wasn't me it wasn't anyone.
It was a day so long awaited and a chance to be as me.
I let the wind run through my hands
as I turned to walk away.
In distant days I long to sense it all so clear.
And fighting time so hard I pray
that this moment lasts forever.
And will the world stay standing still at least for me.
Through my eyes stare into me.
I bear my heart for all to see.
With my face turned to the sun there ever standing still.
And fighting time so much I ask.
I will this morning last forever.
Though seasons change and things come to pass
remain inside of me.
And fighting time so hard I pray
that this moment lasts forever.
and will the world stay standing still at least for me.
I had no faith before that day in any vow or deed.
Days followed days and years were meaningless.
Despite the wisdom of defeat
I bore my heart for all to see the wonders I'd seen.
-VNV Nation, "Standing"
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(sometimes when you are being beaten by illness or pain, and all you can do is stand up and walk tall and fight back, it is that moment you need to remember, that moment when you told yourself you would not lie down, you would not fall without fighting, and you would force yourself to remain strong no matter what)
(and sometimes in the midst of the euphoria of the temporal lobe's storm, you might wish, just for an instant, that the reality you have dissolved into might last an eternity in a second, if not a few more moments just so you may touch the highest secrets in the universe, even though you know it is as fleeting as a god's kiss)
(but sometimes all it takes is a single voice, that one person to tell you how much you mean to them, how much they love you, and you can do nothing else but fight for yourself and fight for them, and know that when everyone else calls you brave, you just know you are living each day like it is the best day)
chronic pain,
cerebral palsy,
epilepsy,
pain,
living,
life