Blink of an eye

[brightlotusmoon]

As I left the neurologist's office, I thought of a dozen ways to write this post. As I stood at the bus stop in the cold, I decided that the best way to say it would be the simplest way:

So, yes. I have epilepsy.
I am an epileptic.

Comments

[saighin]

I'm actually not going to say "oh sweety, I'm so sorry", because honestly, I don't necessarily think the diagnosis is a bad thing. Not knowing what was wrong, why it was happening, being unable to control it, was alot worse.

Now it just has a name.

Exactly. And now that it has a name, it gives the option of definitive ways to treat it. Who knows, maybe this will enable you to get the siezures completely under control now?

*HUGE HUG* I am sorry this whole thing has been so scary, though. And I'm proud of you beyond words that you're facing it - and your fear of it - and taking the steps you are to address it. 'Cause that's the hard part, and I think you're being amazingly strong in handling it.

[brightlotusmoon]

I don't think it's a bad, either... I actually feel somewhat relieved, you know? It's something. It's not "nothing" or "we don't know".

Thank you. *hugs back* I seem to have a habit of having to face remarkable health problems and dealing with them using grace and a will of fucking steel.

Wonder Woman

[vampcat728]

You have always had the grace of a pristine river and the steel balls of a mechanical bull, I always remember you that way and I know I may be distant from everyone for so long now and probably always will be but know you are always in my thoughts fondly.

Re: Wonder Woman

[brightlotusmoon]

*smiles mistily*
Wow...
That was beautifully poetic. Thank you, dearest.
Same to you. I've missed you. I really hope you are doing better.

[bluepony0628]

I'm so glad that you know now. It's all going to be fine I know (as I'm preaching to the choir, eh?). What I was going to say in that post last week was if you want any advice as to natural methods of healing, I may be able to get you some information. I don't know if I've mentioned before, but my mother is a doctor of natural medicine (homeopathy, acupuncture, oriental medicine and the like). She's treated patients who have serious conditions (cancer, brain tumors, seizures etc) so that their symptoms go into at least remission. But of course I respect anything you decide. Only offering help. =)

Just wanted to let you know that I think you have such a strong character. I know you can get through this. And yes, it's only a name. It's all what you make of it.

[brightlotusmoon]

Actually, I wouldn't mind your advice at all. :)

I love Passionflower, personally. I don't think I will ever stop taking that. And I know that it is listed as an herb that can help treat seizures by increasing GABA in the brain -- which is what drugs like Trileptil do.

[messhedontwant]

I hope that the combination of meds works out okay for you. best wishes <333

[lem0nb0mbs]

I always found it was kind of a welcome releif to finally know. So, in the best tradition of turning lemons into hard lemonade, congrats on finally getting one of the big answers!

[brightlotusmoon]

Yah, no shit. I've been climbing the walls quietly for the past week. I'm just glad we finally have answers and can do stuff about it!

[whordorable]

*hug*