Shut Up, Unless You Know Why...
Everything is ow and headpain. Fuck you too, winter.
http://www.headaches.org/education/Headache_Topic_Sheets/Coexisting_Migraine_and_Tension-Type_Headaches
You know those coexisting migraine and tension-type headaches that wax and wane as they will? I keep having those. I don't like taking codeine every few days, but those daily injections of unicorn blood don't seem to be working. I guess I'll just have to trust those evil evil pharmaceutical medications that actually stave off the worst of the symptoms. Evil, I tell you. How dare they ease my pains without being freshly cut from a rainforest tree fertilized with dragon manure. Wait, that's the fantasy version related to the croton lechleri tree, which makes dragon's blood resin, which is lovely, but only as a topical treatment.
Apologies. I'm just so, so, so tired of strangers coming down on me for taking prescription narcotics with my neem pills, moringa tea, turmeric extract, and vitamins. Look, cannabis is still illegal. I can't do yoga. Acupuncture is only temporary. Happy Positive Thoughts tm don't work. I've told my story over and over: the story of how I was raised on holistic alternative remedies, shunning Big Pharma, giggling whenever I passed a pharmacy with the P on the neon pharmacy sign blown out, insisting that all I needed were supplements, essential oil massages on my feet, alternative treatments, and meditation... until I hit my mid-twenties and I really desperately needed pharmaceutical prescription drugs to keep from, like, almost dying.
Seven pharmaceutical drugs and thirty herbal supplements, balanced together since 2006, in the full and total knowledge, understanding, and harmony that everything comes together in certain ways for me, myself, and I... and I still get scolded and yelled at for "giving all my money to Big Pharma" when "all I need is this herb" to "cure all my ills" and oh my god shut the fuck up. Not to mention how people treat me when they learn I'm autistic with OCD, ADHD, memory loss, learning disabilities. Vaccines! Gluten! Dairy! Negative emotions! Psychic trauma! Negative thinking! Not enough meditation! Too much of the wrong meditation! Not enough kale! Eating meat! Not juicing every day! Prescriptions! Doctors! Chocolate! Wine! Everything is bad for me! Except natural and organic and botanical things! As long as I change my life to completely organic I will be healed and I will live until age two hundred!
*cough*
I'm done.
I've also been in a clinical depression episode for a week so far, but the symptoms are presenting in an interesting way. The hollow parts, the empty spaces, are very quiet and soft. I am living in a mist, with shadows at the edges of my sight. I am treating the symptoms as well as I can for my own self, my own individual health. The phrases "Have you tried [treatment] yet?" and "You should try [treatment]" are starting to make me twitch.
This essentially sums it up. You don't have to be queer to appreciate it, of course (I am bisexual myself), but it is one of the most accurate, respectful, and honest videos I've seen on the subject.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yqtuwXGvpK4
http://www.headaches.org/education/Headache_Topic_Sheets/Coexisting_Migraine_and_Tension-Type_Headaches
You know those coexisting migraine and tension-type headaches that wax and wane as they will? I keep having those. I don't like taking codeine every few days, but those daily injections of unicorn blood don't seem to be working. I guess I'll just have to trust those evil evil pharmaceutical medications that actually stave off the worst of the symptoms. Evil, I tell you. How dare they ease my pains without being freshly cut from a rainforest tree fertilized with dragon manure. Wait, that's the fantasy version related to the croton lechleri tree, which makes dragon's blood resin, which is lovely, but only as a topical treatment.
Apologies. I'm just so, so, so tired of strangers coming down on me for taking prescription narcotics with my neem pills, moringa tea, turmeric extract, and vitamins. Look, cannabis is still illegal. I can't do yoga. Acupuncture is only temporary. Happy Positive Thoughts tm don't work. I've told my story over and over: the story of how I was raised on holistic alternative remedies, shunning Big Pharma, giggling whenever I passed a pharmacy with the P on the neon pharmacy sign blown out, insisting that all I needed were supplements, essential oil massages on my feet, alternative treatments, and meditation... until I hit my mid-twenties and I really desperately needed pharmaceutical prescription drugs to keep from, like, almost dying.
Seven pharmaceutical drugs and thirty herbal supplements, balanced together since 2006, in the full and total knowledge, understanding, and harmony that everything comes together in certain ways for me, myself, and I... and I still get scolded and yelled at for "giving all my money to Big Pharma" when "all I need is this herb" to "cure all my ills" and oh my god shut the fuck up. Not to mention how people treat me when they learn I'm autistic with OCD, ADHD, memory loss, learning disabilities. Vaccines! Gluten! Dairy! Negative emotions! Psychic trauma! Negative thinking! Not enough meditation! Too much of the wrong meditation! Not enough kale! Eating meat! Not juicing every day! Prescriptions! Doctors! Chocolate! Wine! Everything is bad for me! Except natural and organic and botanical things! As long as I change my life to completely organic I will be healed and I will live until age two hundred!
*cough*
I'm done.
I've also been in a clinical depression episode for a week so far, but the symptoms are presenting in an interesting way. The hollow parts, the empty spaces, are very quiet and soft. I am living in a mist, with shadows at the edges of my sight. I am treating the symptoms as well as I can for my own self, my own individual health. The phrases "Have you tried [treatment] yet?" and "You should try [treatment]" are starting to make me twitch.
This essentially sums it up. You don't have to be queer to appreciate it, of course (I am bisexual myself), but it is one of the most accurate, respectful, and honest videos I've seen on the subject.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yqtuwXGvpK4
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