Ninety Seconds Lasts Forever In Epilepsy Wonderland

Nov 07, 2013 19:55

Seizure. I yowled OH FUCK three times and grabbed the arms of my leather task chair and I felt my head fall back and my whole body spasmed and my eyes closed and
I was running so fast through the forest following Alicia; her long long blonde hair streaming, and she was shouting, and there was such a bright light, a portal like before, and Alicia was yelling, and she reached behind and grabbed my right hand (left hand was hanging with spasticity) and told me Only a few more yards I promise you'll be fine, and we were in the portal of light before I knew it. On the other side, Serena and Amara had their arms open, and Serena grabbed me and held me tightly, and the warm tranquility of her power washed over me. Amara put her hands on my head and murmured something, like a spell or incantation, and I felt so relaxed my muscles fell loose and I almost stumbled. Serena asked me, Do you want to lie on the bed with Koan? I said, Yes please. The two women supported me and led me to Serena's mansion, to her guest room, my room. The calico kitten was curled on on a pillow, but she woke up mewing and trilling, paced the pillow, and when I was settled, she carefully crawled onto my chest and assumed the meatloaf position and purred loudly and nuzzled my face. Amara put her hands against my cheeks and murmured Oh sweetie, I will take care of the neurons and synapses, you relax. And I started crying, just a little, and I whispered, I love you, I love how I made you all up, thank you for being in my brain. And I closed my eyes
In the real world, I came to, gasping and whimpering, my hands clenched spastically against the arms of the chair. I had to write this. 7:33 to 7:35. I am wildly energetic in my postictal state. The migraine is worse now. I've taken medicine. I'll be fine. I just had to write it down.
Adam is on his way home from work. He called, and he knew right away that I was not braining well. I love him.
Rose had jumped on my lap immediately, and nuzzled my face, and purred and purred.

seizure recovery, chronic pain, brain, mind, spirit guardians, cerebral palsy, migraine, being alice, pain management, migraines, seizures, epilepsy, life, fibromyalgia

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