Wow. Oh.
It is really starting to hit me now, bit by bit. It's sinking in quickly. I'm sobbing right now. I don't want to think about anything beyond the fact that in a few weeks, I will have official SSDI documentation, and then later I will have official SSDI money, and then I will need official figuring out stuff. It's so huge. It's too huge. It's bigger than my brain's ability to understand. I was so scared because it was unknown, and now it's done, and I won, and I'm still scared because it is real. I don't know what to do. I need to stop thinking and just breathe.