Mom
I don't think today is going to be a good day. I was working on my nano at like 2am because I got bitten by a pretty good idea and I really really want to finish. So I was writing a simple scene where the MC's parents are taking pictures of her before Formal. And then for some reason, her mother starts talking about her when she was a baby and how now they've drifted just a bit from each other and I lost it. I cried like a baby. And then Taylor Swift has a song called the Best Days. And it's talking about her mother guiding her through different points of her life.
And I lost it this morning. And then the writer's block for LJ was cigarette smoking and I thought even more about how unfare this whole thing is. How I just wish I could hear her voice or touch her hand. And how I feel like I have no one to talk to at 11pm when I really want to vent about some asshole at work.
About how she'll never tell me I'm pretty again, or think a story was a good idea. I can't fangirl with her over NCIS or call and ask if Mac and Harm on JAG finally did it like I used to.
I can't remember how to make her chicken and dumplings and her gravy, or her stuffing. I think one of her plants is dying and I don't know how to save it. I know her cats are lonely and I can't help them.
And I was looking forward to today, because tonight is the Twilight release and I'm going with a really cool girl from ATL, one of the few left, and we went to the Breaking Dawn release together. And I'm super excited. But now I'm sad. And I'm going to see Sal for the first time in like five days.
I think I'm ovulating.
And I lost it this morning. And then the writer's block for LJ was cigarette smoking and I thought even more about how unfare this whole thing is. How I just wish I could hear her voice or touch her hand. And how I feel like I have no one to talk to at 11pm when I really want to vent about some asshole at work.
About how she'll never tell me I'm pretty again, or think a story was a good idea. I can't fangirl with her over NCIS or call and ask if Mac and Harm on JAG finally did it like I used to.
I can't remember how to make her chicken and dumplings and her gravy, or her stuffing. I think one of her plants is dying and I don't know how to save it. I know her cats are lonely and I can't help them.
And I was looking forward to today, because tonight is the Twilight release and I'm going with a really cool girl from ATL, one of the few left, and we went to the Breaking Dawn release together. And I'm super excited. But now I'm sad. And I'm going to see Sal for the first time in like five days.
I think I'm ovulating.