This world is so small its crazy. The fact that the circle gets bigger and comes back to me really irrates me. I wish I could just break away, because as long as I stay in this fanatic ungodly social structure I'm just going to go insane. Such moral decay and the unveiling of true character, so grotesque in that light. I want to hide, shield my
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Oh, ladies now I get it allitle more. The great heavy sighs of dissapointment and a feeling of loss for an expression never heard, and b most importantly I captured...held, the beauty in the female image that forever holds even the painful memories even to her own end, how much she does for us! and her desire to see that she has made a posative reflection in the world, that she could even let it go, if just she knew. And the ironic fear which perpetuates the forelonging unfolding of this shining beauty, That is right there just waiting. oh that I could be there when it hits you! I'm close now, I can feel this one, the forever longing of holding on to somthing while you watch it fade away. The pain you carry. And yet I am directly repelled by somthing, that is telling me it's not my feeling. Why if I Am feeling it, can't I associate this with myself, It's always called me. Look I'm saying that I feel it! and yet, it's just not clicking. It's the strongest sadness I know, and still I deny it, or I'm just having to find it in other people for some reason?
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p.s. so much condensed personality aboud, so relative.
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I will write more
p.s. oh and I realize questions lead to the reavealing of perspective. If I had all the questions...hmmm hm. But words do me what feeling? A bubble some may live in. Internal existance wraped in a fear of self expression. But concerning all of this fear, could it be??? Oh could it be, we don't want to see the blindness of internal falsity.
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