everything i have ever thought is wrong
I used to think that i was free! No1 could control me.. i was in my own world and i could do w/e i want... i would go anywhere the road took me and choose w/e paths i wanted to take! i could drift in the wind as far away as i wanted.. i used to think i lived me own life... and i could just pick up and leave and do w/e whenever i wanted
Now i see.. that im not as free and as drifty as i once thught. I cant just pick up and go to cali.. i cant just leave everything and live a happy life w/ the one i love.. i cant live in all the different states at one point in my life and i cant have like 50 different jobs... even if the jobs make me happy, i just cant be wild and go w/ the flow!
Ive been going w/ the fl;ow all my life... or atleats thats what i thoguyth.. i thought i had it all under control.. i thought i knew what i wanted... i was wrong
I have to go to college... i cant just leave and settle for somethign just bcuz im afriad of rejection and am too laxy to write an outstanding essay. I cant go w/ the flow.. bcuz as much as i want to belive that i am a drifter and that i can just pick up and leave and be happy wherever i go... im not. I want to go to college.. i want to be successful in life.. i just wish i could just go head into the sunset whenever i wanted and just life my life. i always say i live my life to the fullest.. and i do.. but ive come to the realization that i am not totally free and i cant just do w/e i want.. bcuz i have priorites.. and i hate that i have priorities!
I wish i could just go wheever and be w/ whoeever and party all the time and have 200 different hobbies and just live life and barely pay the bills... bcuz that sounds like me.. it sounds like me a lot.. but inside i kno that although im laid back.. ill never be able to just settle.. and i hate that i have obligations.. but i guess in the end ill be doing what i was meant to be doing, and ill be where i was meant to be, and ill be w/ who i was meant to be with, and ill be living the way i was meant to live...
I can only hope..
Now i see.. that im not as free and as drifty as i once thught. I cant just pick up and go to cali.. i cant just leave everything and live a happy life w/ the one i love.. i cant live in all the different states at one point in my life and i cant have like 50 different jobs... even if the jobs make me happy, i just cant be wild and go w/ the flow!
Ive been going w/ the fl;ow all my life... or atleats thats what i thoguyth.. i thought i had it all under control.. i thought i knew what i wanted... i was wrong
I have to go to college... i cant just leave and settle for somethign just bcuz im afriad of rejection and am too laxy to write an outstanding essay. I cant go w/ the flow.. bcuz as much as i want to belive that i am a drifter and that i can just pick up and leave and be happy wherever i go... im not. I want to go to college.. i want to be successful in life.. i just wish i could just go head into the sunset whenever i wanted and just life my life. i always say i live my life to the fullest.. and i do.. but ive come to the realization that i am not totally free and i cant just do w/e i want.. bcuz i have priorites.. and i hate that i have priorities!
I wish i could just go wheever and be w/ whoeever and party all the time and have 200 different hobbies and just live life and barely pay the bills... bcuz that sounds like me.. it sounds like me a lot.. but inside i kno that although im laid back.. ill never be able to just settle.. and i hate that i have obligations.. but i guess in the end ill be doing what i was meant to be doing, and ill be where i was meant to be, and ill be w/ who i was meant to be with, and ill be living the way i was meant to live...
I can only hope..