So I lied. It wasn't my last. I couldnt end it on that note. How silly of me.
Where do I begin? I have read many of my previous entries and have realized, I have grown up a lot since then. And its weird because I wrote the last one right before I left. And since then I have changed in many ways. Thank god. I have met a lot of awesome new people. And many of them are the reason for the changes. I was always scared of change, but for once it was better for me to change than stay the same. Awesome. So I love esf. And I love su. and I love band (haha how abnormal) i love what I am doing. And I love how I am spending my time. Its crazy how you can sit back and just look at how everything is working around you. they all seem to work together to make everything right. For years andrea was telling me, jackie just wait. just wait. it will be wonderful. And I always thought, yah right what about right now? But she was right. But I wont tell her that to her face. I have a hard time with that most of the time. But she was. After everything she was. and she always was. Oh well the point wasnt who was right or wrong, it was that i finally got it right. yay for me. haha Now I guess I just have to undo many things but isnt that supposed to be the easy part? Right well I think it should be. Yeah It should. But i guess it doesnt really matter what i undo. Because its the things that have been done that have made me who i am. and well who i am ... is one pretty cool girl : D I just plan to never make those same mistakes. ever again. But thats cool because the people i hang out with now, would never let those things happen. And that makes me feel safe. And feeling safe, is a pretty damn good feeling. I can no longer think up things to put in here. one day I am going to go moon and print all these out... free printing in moon. hahaha : P yah I'm a good esfer waste paper and ink on useless thoughts and feelings. This journal has lost purpose. And I like it that way. later journalface. : D