please help me understand how i can make this better

[brightestcr4yon]

this is all wrong. he doesn't really mean it, does he? it is not possible. it wasn't suposed to be like this. this entire weekend was supposed to be different. i keep escaping to my car and driving aimlessly or just sitting. this isn't right at all. he knows better than this. i know he does. why do i feel so guilty? so inadequate? so flawed? i'm tired and he's overworked. we do nothing but fight and discuss everything until we both hate the subject but nothing has been resolved. it's not supposed to be this frustrating. please tell me it gets better. please tell me we were kidding about a summer break. please tell me something consoling. anything.

p.s. thanks for having me, theresa. it wasn't boring. really. nothing can be more boring than my house anyway.