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happy thanksgiving and shite
things are fucking wierd when your where you used to be but not the same age and the same people are there but totally different
i saw all kinds of people i wanted to see again and as good as it was it leaves me more depressed than when i hadnt seen them in years because it doesnt matter, all that nostalgia consumed in a few beers and one tall glass of warm whiskey. degrees, graduation, jobs, weddings, golf, poker, shitty tv and dui's? i hate that stupid talk, that useless garb and so if i find myself shitting out of my mouth to you about that and only that sort of rubbish then you can take it to the bank that anything you and i had that resembled moxy in a friendship has gone stale as dried puke stains.
but with all this bitching it'd seem like im spiteful about this break, and the people ive seen on this break, but its not really this break and these people because the people i saw are really the opposite, michelle zeh xtina cook stod and such are not like that so im either talking about wilmington or myself and in either case it means i just want to do something different. im tired of fatting up and flattening out over some useless education while waiting for love to come back. winter is here and it feels like a kick in the teeth and nudging elbows on the edge of highrises.
and the only thing this new camera phone has done for me is reminded me that i am not photogenic no matter how hard i try
things are fucking wierd when your where you used to be but not the same age and the same people are there but totally different
i saw all kinds of people i wanted to see again and as good as it was it leaves me more depressed than when i hadnt seen them in years because it doesnt matter, all that nostalgia consumed in a few beers and one tall glass of warm whiskey. degrees, graduation, jobs, weddings, golf, poker, shitty tv and dui's? i hate that stupid talk, that useless garb and so if i find myself shitting out of my mouth to you about that and only that sort of rubbish then you can take it to the bank that anything you and i had that resembled moxy in a friendship has gone stale as dried puke stains.
but with all this bitching it'd seem like im spiteful about this break, and the people ive seen on this break, but its not really this break and these people because the people i saw are really the opposite, michelle zeh xtina cook stod and such are not like that so im either talking about wilmington or myself and in either case it means i just want to do something different. im tired of fatting up and flattening out over some useless education while waiting for love to come back. winter is here and it feels like a kick in the teeth and nudging elbows on the edge of highrises.
and the only thing this new camera phone has done for me is reminded me that i am not photogenic no matter how hard i try