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wow, nothing like drinking by yourself in the middle of the day.
*sigh*
even better when it isn't even your booze. and when you have zero dollars for the next million years.
so finally felt like my life was getting sorted out, it was gonna be okay, got the lease done, got most of our shit packed and moved in, got my classes all niceliy settled, got into a groove with my ridiculous job, got stuff at home as settled as it is probably ever going to be (i hope that is a total lie), and took a deep breath, and went to sign up for my SFA for the coming school year. was met with a slap in the face! deadline was ten days ago. mother fucking christ son of a fucking bitch cock sucker sick fucking jesus bastard balls fucker. so after trying to calculate what this would mean for me exactly, and getting to stew in that all night/morning, i finally got a hold of the people, and they told me that not all was lost, but that i would have to pay for everything up front, and i would get the money a couple months later. well just fucking dandy. well i mean i'm okay with that, i imagine i will scrape money together from somewhere. but it's gonna be fuckin tight. and then get a shitload come the end of october. pay back what i will undoubtedly owe people by then, and then carry on my merry way.
god damn, life is just stupidly complicated for no good fucking reason.
so yes, i felt justified in sitting down at 4:00 and having a drink all by meself. and i felt equally justified in having another at 5, which it is now. helping with the stomach knots and stress a bit i think. wish we had some fuckin weed kickin around. hope i get my two days off to go down to truro. mom and dad are gonna be dissapointed if i don't. and so will i. especially after they helped us move everything. and especially when i have to mention that i have zero monies helping me with school for the first little while when all said moneies are due.
thats my rant for the moment. i hate being home all alone. i never do anything productive, and never even anything entertaining. i shall perhaps do the laundries.
*sigh*
even better when it isn't even your booze. and when you have zero dollars for the next million years.
so finally felt like my life was getting sorted out, it was gonna be okay, got the lease done, got most of our shit packed and moved in, got my classes all niceliy settled, got into a groove with my ridiculous job, got stuff at home as settled as it is probably ever going to be (i hope that is a total lie), and took a deep breath, and went to sign up for my SFA for the coming school year. was met with a slap in the face! deadline was ten days ago. mother fucking christ son of a fucking bitch cock sucker sick fucking jesus bastard balls fucker. so after trying to calculate what this would mean for me exactly, and getting to stew in that all night/morning, i finally got a hold of the people, and they told me that not all was lost, but that i would have to pay for everything up front, and i would get the money a couple months later. well just fucking dandy. well i mean i'm okay with that, i imagine i will scrape money together from somewhere. but it's gonna be fuckin tight. and then get a shitload come the end of october. pay back what i will undoubtedly owe people by then, and then carry on my merry way.
god damn, life is just stupidly complicated for no good fucking reason.
so yes, i felt justified in sitting down at 4:00 and having a drink all by meself. and i felt equally justified in having another at 5, which it is now. helping with the stomach knots and stress a bit i think. wish we had some fuckin weed kickin around. hope i get my two days off to go down to truro. mom and dad are gonna be dissapointed if i don't. and so will i. especially after they helped us move everything. and especially when i have to mention that i have zero monies helping me with school for the first little while when all said moneies are due.
thats my rant for the moment. i hate being home all alone. i never do anything productive, and never even anything entertaining. i shall perhaps do the laundries.