thoughts on a saturday afternoon
why does it feel like my life is spiraling out of control?
where did the time go?
where am i going and how will i get there?
who am i?
WHO AM I??
How am I doing?
There are ways to make you hurt, there are ways that i've coped, but now i;m in utter dissaray.
if i'm not wanted then i'm okay with that
if i'm not needed thats okay, too!
so many things i want to do so many experiences i want to live so many possibilities. why are things the way they are...foolish. I FEEL FOOLISH!! things are changing. i can feel it and can smell it from a mile away. i can hear it in the tones of voices. i can taste its bitterness. i can touch its spikes.
there...i have thought....no need to think about it anymore...perhaps i'm not suppose to have someone in my life...perhaps i;m not the dating/marrying type. I WANT KIDS ONE DAY!!! FUCKING HOMO! i want to have children...my own flesh and blood. i don't want to end up like the rest of the family who is single and unmarried. I just need life to breath life. I need something new...a change...A BREATH OF FRESH AIR...is highly needed! i still want to do my art pieces...gotta go buy art supplies...OH LALA...i like writing...it's so...beautiful and threaputic.
i think i have said too much...these thoughts will soon be erased with mind numbing porn.
where did the time go?
where am i going and how will i get there?
who am i?
WHO AM I??
How am I doing?
There are ways to make you hurt, there are ways that i've coped, but now i;m in utter dissaray.
if i'm not wanted then i'm okay with that
if i'm not needed thats okay, too!
so many things i want to do so many experiences i want to live so many possibilities. why are things the way they are...foolish. I FEEL FOOLISH!! things are changing. i can feel it and can smell it from a mile away. i can hear it in the tones of voices. i can taste its bitterness. i can touch its spikes.
there...i have thought....no need to think about it anymore...perhaps i'm not suppose to have someone in my life...perhaps i;m not the dating/marrying type. I WANT KIDS ONE DAY!!! FUCKING HOMO! i want to have children...my own flesh and blood. i don't want to end up like the rest of the family who is single and unmarried. I just need life to breath life. I need something new...a change...A BREATH OF FRESH AIR...is highly needed! i still want to do my art pieces...gotta go buy art supplies...OH LALA...i like writing...it's so...beautiful and threaputic.
i think i have said too much...these thoughts will soon be erased with mind numbing porn.