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For anyone who wasn't already clear on the subject, basing the entire emotional half of your life on just one person isn't healthy. I don't know when I forgot about that, but I remembered the instant one comment made my playful leg-clinging actually serious.
I had no idea his departure would affect me this strongly. I wonder how many times in the next couple of weeks I'll have to turn away and cry.
I've never been too badly attached to other people to cry over them. The lack of them, sometimes, but otherwise I cry about straight forward things, like feeling unuseful at my job, or fretting over a paper. I don't even mind leaving my parents (something that bothers many people). I believe it's because I've always had this wall up. I'm always safe in here. But now there's someone inside, someone else who is an integral part of me, and sending part of yourself away can't not hurt.
It's so funny, how much of a cliche this is. ...Stepping back and looking at it from that perspective is so much easier than thinking about the actual event.
I had no idea his departure would affect me this strongly. I wonder how many times in the next couple of weeks I'll have to turn away and cry.
I've never been too badly attached to other people to cry over them. The lack of them, sometimes, but otherwise I cry about straight forward things, like feeling unuseful at my job, or fretting over a paper. I don't even mind leaving my parents (something that bothers many people). I believe it's because I've always had this wall up. I'm always safe in here. But now there's someone inside, someone else who is an integral part of me, and sending part of yourself away can't not hurt.
It's so funny, how much of a cliche this is. ...Stepping back and looking at it from that perspective is so much easier than thinking about the actual event.