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I'm practically nocturnal. I'm also practically antisocial. Fuck work. I'm glad I only have 4 more days. I mean, being there is turning kind of fun, I have Stephanie to keep me sane and a better allotment of cute boys than in the past. I also have power, which never hurt. It's just the HOURS. It kills my night, I'm too physically exhausted to go out but too mentally awake to go to sleep. Then I stay up way too late and lose my mornings. Not that there's really been a lot going lately anyway. I don't think I've seen anyone since Taylor's welcome-back dinner.
It's strange that we all have such different lives now. From this website I just learned that Hannah's going to orientation soon (or already went?) and I had no idea. And everyone's preparing to go to college...again. It's funny that almost all of you guys are going to a new school...you all have the same anxieties again.
I don't miss having a boyfriend, but I miss the fact that there's one person who kind of knows everything about your life. I mean, you know what they're doing every day, either because you're there with them or you talk about it with them. Sometimes I feel disjointed...it's like I have this life at work, one with friends from high school, one with friends from college, one with my family...and nothing to tie it together, no one that knows all the sections (or even, really, just more than one). Not that a boyfriend would understand everything, but I could at least give him the gist of each part. The funny thing is that this was part of what I wanted, this independence to bounce between these worlds.
Maybe it's just cabin fever, the fact that with everyone's schedules it's hard to get together, so I'm just...bored and lethargic. I really don't want a boyfriend...I'm a terrible person, the thought just came into my head that the only reason I would want one right now would be so that I have something to do when everyone else is off with theirs. But that's called "using people," and that's wrong. Right.
It's strange that we all have such different lives now. From this website I just learned that Hannah's going to orientation soon (or already went?) and I had no idea. And everyone's preparing to go to college...again. It's funny that almost all of you guys are going to a new school...you all have the same anxieties again.
I don't miss having a boyfriend, but I miss the fact that there's one person who kind of knows everything about your life. I mean, you know what they're doing every day, either because you're there with them or you talk about it with them. Sometimes I feel disjointed...it's like I have this life at work, one with friends from high school, one with friends from college, one with my family...and nothing to tie it together, no one that knows all the sections (or even, really, just more than one). Not that a boyfriend would understand everything, but I could at least give him the gist of each part. The funny thing is that this was part of what I wanted, this independence to bounce between these worlds.
Maybe it's just cabin fever, the fact that with everyone's schedules it's hard to get together, so I'm just...bored and lethargic. I really don't want a boyfriend...I'm a terrible person, the thought just came into my head that the only reason I would want one right now would be so that I have something to do when everyone else is off with theirs. But that's called "using people," and that's wrong. Right.