my feet stink
i had sweaty hands
a lump in my throat
and fear that it wouldn't go away
and maybe i do want too much
it's seldom that i feel like this, but it happens and it's something that always bothers me
but i hate complaining and moping and simply wasting one moment dwelling on how terrible i felt
so i did something that i don't normally do
something that if you asked me even a month ago if i'd do it, i'd laugh hysterically
i grabbed my track shorts, threw on a dirty t shirt, and to complete my ensemble my road shoes.... i went running... and it's funny only cause i run both indoor and outdoor, been to regional championships, have titles, been recruited to college teams, and it's something i hate, but at times like that, it's one of the only things that actually really make me feel better
*** edit*** i had actually written a couple paragraphs more about what i thought about on the run, and why this method never fails to cheer me up but it's irrelevant
i feel better now and that's pretty much all i care about, it was the point of run and i achieved it, so the rest as they say is history
i know most of this was triggered by lack of sleep, restlessness, frustration and me being extremely cranky, i hate days like today, i hate complaining
i apologize for griping
amy
albe- i'm so incredibly sorry i didn't go tonight, i honestly feel terrible that i let you down, i just couldn't do it
a lump in my throat
and fear that it wouldn't go away
and maybe i do want too much
it's seldom that i feel like this, but it happens and it's something that always bothers me
but i hate complaining and moping and simply wasting one moment dwelling on how terrible i felt
so i did something that i don't normally do
something that if you asked me even a month ago if i'd do it, i'd laugh hysterically
i grabbed my track shorts, threw on a dirty t shirt, and to complete my ensemble my road shoes.... i went running... and it's funny only cause i run both indoor and outdoor, been to regional championships, have titles, been recruited to college teams, and it's something i hate, but at times like that, it's one of the only things that actually really make me feel better
*** edit*** i had actually written a couple paragraphs more about what i thought about on the run, and why this method never fails to cheer me up but it's irrelevant
i feel better now and that's pretty much all i care about, it was the point of run and i achieved it, so the rest as they say is history
i know most of this was triggered by lack of sleep, restlessness, frustration and me being extremely cranky, i hate days like today, i hate complaining
i apologize for griping
amy
albe- i'm so incredibly sorry i didn't go tonight, i honestly feel terrible that i let you down, i just couldn't do it