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knit knit knit. today i woke up feeling no particular way and having no particular feelings about anything in general, kind of indifferent I guess. It was nice to sleep in though. woke up, layed in bed for a long time listening to am radio. thinking it's about time to start working out again. Sometimes I don't hate my body, sometimes I do. Depends on the mirror I guess. layed in bed some more, got up and dressed and went to have lunch with my sister hillary, the baby, and her new nice boyfriend. It was a nice time, patience makes me laugh so much. she is so funny and free. she changes her mind alot. we looked at the kids menu together and she decided what she wanted was the picture of the bird. ha ha. after I said goodbye to hillary mac and fussy patience i went and redeemed my coupon for a free lipstick and two half off coupons. got a little bit ripped off but thats ok, I don't mind. went home, layed down for a bit and then walked to work. i like work! after work went to kensington and got a burrito that I couldn't finish. felt bad throwing it out but i did. went to starbucks after and bought a frappachino and a pretzel with chocolate on it. yum. saved it till i got home and then lori-ann called me, and it made me feel so much better. I felt mostly bad today, and then when lori-ann called i felt so nice, because she is my friend and sometimes you need to be reminded that you are loved. and now I am feeling ok, and Im going to start knitting another cowl for my boss's daughter because she asked me to but im excited because we're going to do an exchange :) and I like to do things for people. its nice that she asked me to do it anyways. right now im not thinking of school or else ill just have a break down. and i miss a lot of people, like everyone. it's weird that i spend the majority of my days alone now. there was like one day when every aspect or facet of my life seemed perfect, and then everything lost its balance as it always does and slowly everything with everyone felt like it was slipping away and falling apart. there was like one day, i'll think of it now and then. thats ok though, i guess there will be more perfect days, and different people one day that are more suitable. I miss my sisters, and when we lived on fernway. we were so funny all the time. i miss my brother too, and my mom. and paula and my friends that i never see. thats ok though
behave,
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behave,
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