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I realized the other day that beyond a couple of months ago I have only a few, vague memories. Beyond five years ago I have no memories at all. This seems rather unhealthy to me. I know my past, I know facts about things that happened, but I don't actually remember them. It's actually rather tragic. I know I threw my baby sister down the stairs, but I don't remember why. I know I had my first crush in first grade, but I don't remember what it felt like. I know I loved my grandfather dearly before he died, but I barely remember him at all. It seems so bizarre to me that I have an excellent memory for numbers and facts, yet I remember next to nothing of my own life.