im dying. i hope i don't rip up my yellow card.
im having trouble sleeping. im not having that problem tonight because i haven't tried to sleep yet, but i didnt sleep at all last night and the night before i got 2 hours and the night before that, i got 4.
i think im dying.
tonight i had my travel vball team practice, and i was the worst i have been since my freshman year. i got 3 out of 46 balls over the net on hitting. i did so bad that my coach let me leave early because he knew something was wrong with me. and of course my dad had to drive me home, he is just like me so we fight all the time about my play. I started crying, and he hates when i cry the most because he thinks it's so rediculous and it is, but i wasn't even that upset about how i was playing at the time. i just felt like crying and i wasn't just crying.
it was a full out sob. completely sobbing like when i first watched million dollar baby.
then my mom felt bad for me when i got home, and she made me hot chocolate without me knowing. she handed it to me while i was finishing me homework. and i looked at the marshmellows and i started crying again because i feel so pathetic. then me mom didn't feel bad for me anymore because i am rediculous. i don't blame her. i don't feel bad for myself. i am being the dumbest person right now.
wow, feels good to get all of that off my chest. i know im going to look at this is a week and delete it of embarrasment of how pathetic i am. i just need a boyfriend to cry on. no, then he would just break up with me.
i hate this. i need a vacation.
i think im dying.
tonight i had my travel vball team practice, and i was the worst i have been since my freshman year. i got 3 out of 46 balls over the net on hitting. i did so bad that my coach let me leave early because he knew something was wrong with me. and of course my dad had to drive me home, he is just like me so we fight all the time about my play. I started crying, and he hates when i cry the most because he thinks it's so rediculous and it is, but i wasn't even that upset about how i was playing at the time. i just felt like crying and i wasn't just crying.
it was a full out sob. completely sobbing like when i first watched million dollar baby.
then my mom felt bad for me when i got home, and she made me hot chocolate without me knowing. she handed it to me while i was finishing me homework. and i looked at the marshmellows and i started crying again because i feel so pathetic. then me mom didn't feel bad for me anymore because i am rediculous. i don't blame her. i don't feel bad for myself. i am being the dumbest person right now.
wow, feels good to get all of that off my chest. i know im going to look at this is a week and delete it of embarrasment of how pathetic i am. i just need a boyfriend to cry on. no, then he would just break up with me.
i hate this. i need a vacation.